What caused your addiction? – Onania Masturbator Forum

Even before full puberty I had an obsessive interest in depictions of women’s bodies, which in those days meant underwear ads in the Sears catalog, marble statues in art books, and rarely a pin-up in a magazine. Sure, I got an erection, and I rubbed it through my jeans, but it wasn’t really masturbation.

Then, just before I turned twelve, sexual maturity hit me full strength. It wasn’t even linked to sexy photos, or even thoughts, my penis just decided one night that it was time. I can still remember the wonder of looking under the covers at my unprecedented massive rigid erection, followed immediately by the new and overwhelming pleasurable sensations of touching it. It wasn’t until the second night that I dared stroke my foreskin up and down for enhanced pleasure. But I was afraid to go too far, stimulate myself past a mysterious point of no return.

It wasn’t until the morning after a third night of nocturnal penis play that I had a “what the heck” moment and stroked faster and longer until I got to the scary brink of the unknown, then went right past it. My first orgasm, and a few pearly drops. I didn’t understand what had happened, especially the ejaculation part, but I loved it!

So it was as simple as that, the excitement, pleasure, and fulfillment of stroking my penis to climax. I don’t think of it as an addiction, it is just something that I dearly love to do, and have been doing ever since.

In the first six months after the momentous discovery I estimate that I masturbated to climax nearly a thousand times. Maybe that is addictive behavior, all a matter of definition. When I discovered the synergistic role that erotica, soft core back then, could play, I was even more committed to my new pastime, not as many climaxes but more aggregate hours spent stroking. But still not addictive, it was simply the thing I most wanted to do with my time, a choice not a compulsion.

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