I can remember trying to control my masturbation when I was younger. I was living on a rural broken down farm.
All I did was work, eat and sleep.
I also became obsessed with fitness. To get these things done every day, I had to control my masturbation addiction!
I allowed myself one ejaculation per week. Ejaculations took place on Fridays at a local XXX porn theater, exactly when it opened at 10 am!
You would be surprised at how many people were there at that hour. Mostly retired men in their mid and late 60’s. I was 32 and 33 at the time.
I would buy a ticket. Then go inside and immediately take all my clothes off and walk around.
After awhile the regulars got to know me and would make comments about my fitness level and how my body was coming along.
They quickly realized that I got off on humiliation and being a sissy.
Once I even shaved my entire body completely hairless from the neck down, just at a request from one of them. They all really loved seeing that!!
I remember being in the hairless state when this greasy looking Italian had me stand in the back of the theater with him.
His hands were all over me. All of a sudden, I got real nervous when he said; ‘Come on, let’s go out in the lobby so I can get a better look at you.”
I remember coming out of the pitch black theater, all-bare and completely hairless into the brilliantly lit lobby. I felt so exposed and vulnerable!!
That is, until I saw the ticket guy locking the front doors.
They just had me stand there and slowly turn around for them under the spotlights for a good 15 minutes while discussing me.
Things like;
“He’s starting to look like gymnast.” ” Lock your knees, then bend over at the waist and put your palms flat on the floor.”
Stuff like that!
The grease-ball and the ticket guy were both laughing at me when the Italian put his arm around my waist and said to me, “Lets go back inside?”
As we walked past him, the ticket guy said to me. “No more weight loss, understand? You look great!
More laughter and humiliation as I was walked back inside by the sleazy-greaser.
The ticket man regularly started supplying me with select pieces of girls lingerie and even got me a pair of 5” black patent high-heel pumps.
Sometimes I would wear this stuff on ejaculation-day!
Leaving the theater every time with my nut-bag completely drained! I would have to wait until the following Friday for release again!
As much edging as anyone would want but no release during the week!
By Thursday night and sometimes even on Tuesday night!
I would have blue-balls, as I submissively put myself to bed in the nude after a long day of edging .
Source: (40) Therapy Session – Page 3 – Onania Masturbator Forum