Moe’s story

a masturbator said:

I began playing with my penis a lot when I started getting erections as
a young boy around 6 or 7 years old. I did this in the bathroom for
long periods of time not knowing what I was doing or why, but, that it
felt good. My mother still had my younger sister and I taking baths
together at the time, but, when she noticed that I was begining to get
erections that ended. I didn’t begin actually masturbating until about
age 10. I still didn’t know what I was doing, only that it felt really
good. I masturbated nearly every night in bed after the first time and
in the mornings as well on the weekends when I didn’t have school.

I learned by self discovery and masturbated by laying on my stomach and
rocking back and forth on the bed until I would cum. This form of
masturbation is now known as TMS or Traumatic Masturbatory Syndrom and
supposedly is not good for you and leads to a number of problems later
on including impotence. Over the next few years my Mom caught me in the
act a number of times. Fortunately, she made no big deal over it and I
continued to masturbate that way until my early teens. One summer
afternoon I was masturbating on my bed prone when she walked in on me
with clean laundry to put away. I was very embarassed to say the least
and wished she would not walk in on me. She got angry and told me to
quit it and quit making a mess of my sheets, pj’s, and bedspread. She
pointed at all the little stains on my bedspread and said she wanted me
to stop “abusing myself” in this way. I was so embarassed I wanted to
disappear right there. I couldn’t stop though, I was already hooked.
Instead I started going out into the woods during the day stripping off
my clothes and playing with myself and masturbating, still prone.  It
took a long time, at least a year, for me to learn to masturbate with
my hands. Then I was able to do it whenever I wanted at home because
she wouldn’t hear my bed making noise. I continued masturbating daily
throught jr. high and high school even when I was having regular sex
with my girlfriend.
When I got married my wife didn’t like sex so we did it very seldom.
She gave me regular handjobs for years, but, gradually that became less
and less often too. I had been masturbating a lot anyway just as I
always had. Once in a while when she wanted sex on the weekends she
found the remains of the night before still on me and asked if I had
given myself a handjob last night. I said yes, I guess I always wanted
her to catch me and now she knew I masturbated. We would then go ahead
and have sex together. Finally I let her actually catch me in the act
and it turned her at first. But, just as everything else, it became
routine and she now pays no attention to my masturbation even when I do
it right in front of her in bed or in the living room. She knows I
masturbate at the computer as well now, but, hasn’t caught me yet. The
other day she found some masturbation searches on the computer and
accused me of sitting here and masturbating. I masturbate almost all
the time now and remain naked at home when I’m off work. I’m completly
impotent now and we almost never make love. When she insists, I need
Viagra or Cialis to get hard and sometimes that won’t even do it
anymore. On the rare occations that I get hard now while masturbating
in front of her she always wants to know why I’m hard.
I’ve been impotent nearly 10 years now, ever since we got the internet
and I discovered edging. I much prefer masturbation to intercourse
because I can last so much longer. I masturbate all day long whenever I
can.