Dave: chronic and addicted masturbator

I am Dave, a mature guy, chronic masturbator, wanking addicted and vey exhibitionist. I was about 10 when I began to masturbate. Over the years as I got into my 20 then 30s I slowly found that I fantasized less about sex with females, and instead found my mind concentrating on the sensations in my cock and testicles.

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I started masturbating compulsively at age 8. It started one Sunday, when my 9 year old friend and I were playing in a toy tent, a bit bored, and we started exploring our anatomy more in depth. We ended up sucking each other’s small penis and then I realized that there was fun down there. By age 10, when my cousin girls would spend holidays at home, I was pushing them to sleep naked so I could watch them and play with my dick. Same request was made to my sister who was even kind enough to let me play first with her nipples then her slit. At 12 , I became aware that porn and masturbation was all I would care in life. At school, I masturbated so much during the courses and at night, having no interest in other forms of sex.
I never even tried to have sex with a girl during secondary school – my hand was all I wanted. At 20 I joined University and decided I should now try proper sex with a partner.  After a party with plenty of booze, I socialized with a young lady 4 years older than me. What a hot chick ! We moved to my room. I can still remember her trying to get my cock hard, but no way.    At 20, I could not get an erection for intercourse! She gave up after and lied in front of me, and I spent the rest of the night masturbating and cummed at least 5 times while she watched me. Gosh, that was heaven.
It went on like that for years. My entire emotive and sexual circle was wanking and still wanking. At 25 I met my future wife at a party. We spent the night in the same room, but did not want to go for sex the first time. We slept in separate beds. During the whole night all I could hear was the sweet noise of her hand rubbing her wet pussy. Another masturbator! We came at least 6 times that night, each in our own bed only using our hands.
At 26 we got married as virgins as we had not even attempted to have sex.  On our wedding night, I was unable to get an erection for my wife. We were finally able to consummate our marriage much later after the honeymoon through endless hand job work.
For professional reasons, I travelled abroad for months and spent most nights alone in hotels. Over the years, I spent many evenings in topless & nude bars and always had a huge collection of porn locked somewhere in my study. I had occasional sex with my wife but maintained my erection only by recalling the porn or situations I had experienced with.  My addiction to masturbation really took off when Internet came. Such a happiness!
Finally, 5-6 years ago now, I lost all ability to gain an erection for intercourse with anyone.   I could not get an erection however hard I tried. It was such an exciting feeling to watch my wife or a woman trying to suck my cock or rub it into an erection and finally giving up! But afterwards, I would lie on my bed naked and masturbate for hours recalling the events. Although I cannot have intercourse, my penis always reacts to my hand. I have tried masturbating to erection, then having sex, but as soon as it starts to enter the vagina, it goes limp.
Now I am a completely addicted and serious masturbator, I cannot do without it and go through every aspect of it. Masturbation is a complete sex form in itself. So now when I masturbate I either focus totally on all parts of my body, or fantasize about masturbation scenarios. I also fantasize about other masturbators and am turned on by masturbation photos and videos, including hundreds I take of myself and which I post all over.

I am so completely addicted to masturbating and exhibitionism.. The need to masturbate builds up quickly in me until I am absolutely desperate with the craving for cock . The only thing that will settle me down and make me relax is to get my cock hard and feel that very first slow gentle caress down it.

Everyone has to feed their masturbation. Some go more for porn, peep show. I am an exhibitionist and exhibitionism feeds my masturbation. Nudism was the obvious behaviour to adopt first, but still needed the thrill.  I therefore did push it further to complete provocative exhibitionism which has better effects on me that two doses of Viagra.
Being watched feeds my addiction tremendously! I can stand regularly naked in a room with lights on for hours, curtains full open hoping somebody outside on the street catches me. When they do , I ejaculate strongly. I love to piss in a bowl, dip my cock in it, masturbate afterwards then show it all off by means of videos on the internet.
I feel an irresistible urge wanking in the most humiliating situations, if I can, trying to look like a web slut, a sissy or a kinky cross-dresser. Needless to say that I have spread hundreds of thousands pics and videos all over the net, all of them with a hard cock in hand and showing my face.
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I have now been a chronic, compulsive masturbator for 40 years, and am totally addicted. I feel I may have also become a slut dude..
I guess I shall never come out of it.  At least I have not come across any one else who did.  I would be grateful if anyone mentioned similar experiences and advise accordingly
Dave