Pathetic virgin admition
Firstly I’m wanking so hard to writing and exposing all this about myself… Such a loser and I love it
So I’m 32 yo and a complete kissless virgin… Actually that’s not true I did kiss a girl back when I was in primary school so like 11yo..? And that’s it as far as my real life sex life… Been a long time since I even tried to change that because I’ve got such anxiety about trying to meet people that I’ve long given up on changing it.
For about 8 years I was chatting on and off to a girl in a different country online and sending her some quite significant $ to help her out… And all along she has been living with her partner… Which I found out about after maybe a year… I got a few pics of her at the start and that was all from her side but I loved sending her pics and vids of me wanking… We had phone sex like twice so that’s as experienced as I am… Telling her that I loved her while knowing she was getting fucked by (and had 2 kids with) her real boyfriend still is 1 of my go to memories… I wank so much to that feeling of being such a beta cuck loser… Love it… Last part to this is I got her name tattooed on me… And I still will love her forever.
Currently I’m around 5 wanks a weekday for about 6 hours a day and up to 8 on a weekend for 10… It really is my life… If I wake up during the night (often) I can’t go back to sleep til I cum… The feeling of just being brain dead sometimes from wanking is amazing… I’ve got a decent sized cock unfortunately so sph doesn’t work for me but definitely am prejac (I’ve achieved down to the 10 seconds) also unless I’m actively wanking I can’t get or stay at all hard so pretty sure I’ve ruined myself for good… Also I always eat my own cum… Don’t even think anything of it now but my loads are small anyway now… Sometimes literally nothing comes out
I can’t finish to just porn now… Only femdom humiliation clips… It can be virgin humiliation, pussy free loser, cei, dirty/humiliation tasks, chronic masturbator humiliation, just general loser/pathetic beta… or my main is I have a huge foot fetish… Genuinely rather see feet then anything else.. There’s so many goddesse/princesses I love… As long as they know and tell me how much of a loser I am then that’ll do me
I post vids/pics of me wanking or fucking my ass (love to dildo myself normally with fruit and veg) online on various sites… Knowing anyone could see them works for me
Roughly worked out its at least 25 wanks a week so that’s about 1300 (at minimum) a year so I’m around 20000 in so far with a whole lot more to go… And I can’t wait to start on my next… Writing this took another 2 out of me…
I know what I am, I know my place in life and I’ve embraced it completely
Think that’s about it… That’s my actual life
Source: (199) Pathetic virgin admition – Onania Masturbator Forum