Onania Masturbator Forum: Too Busy to Masturbate – Good or Bad?

In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:

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Too Busy to Masturbate – Good or Bad?
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For the past few weeks, I’ve been so busy with one thing and another, I’ve had virtually no time to devote to masturbation and porn. After a while, I found that it was easier than I thought it would be and I even started to feel good about conquering my urge to masturbate. Not getting a chance to look at porn helped greatly.

However, in the last few days I got to spend a lot of time with those stiletto clad naked beauties on my computer and the floodgates have opened again. I find I cannot wait to stroke myself at every opportunity.

The fact that I’ve been away from the world of wanking for a while has made my craving to masturbate even stronger since I `fell off the wagon’.

Although I felt good about controlling my urges, now that I’m back jerking off at every opportunity and thinking about it even when I’m not stroking, I realise I’m only fooling myself by imagining I could ever stop for long. It just gives me too much pleasure, even though I’m ashamed and disgusted with myself.

At the moment, I’m so horny that I just want to lock myself away for about two weeks, alone and naked with my porn, wanking, edging, teasing myself and ejaculating in a non-stop masturbation marathon.

Even after ejaculating, I’m getting aroused again almost straight away. It feels like I have loads of catching up to do after neglecting my penis for so long.

Has anyone else had these kinds of conflicting sensations? I’d love to hear from others who have had similar experiences. Did you feel positive about not masturbating? Or were you frustrated at not getting the chance to indulge?

Although I’m resigned to being a chronic masturbator, and completely enjoy losing myself in a long wanking session, it was good to feel I could control the habit instead of it controlling me. Now that I’ve surrendered to the urge again, it turns me on like crazy knowing I can’t wait to masturbate over more porn. I don’t have any choice. My addiction has taken over once again.

I want to give up and don’t want to give up at the same time.

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You sound like me in many ways, and I’m sure many who read this will say the
same thing. I’ve tried to quit many times, for many reasons, which are too long
to list here. In the end though, I always returned to masturbation, deepening
my addiction to greater levels. I can’t say I’ll never try to quit again, but I
know going in, that chances are, I’ll start masturbating again. The one thing I
have learned is that I will always be a masturbator till the day I die.

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I’ll bet many here know that conflict.

When I was a young virgin I was conflicted because I felt that my chronic masturbation might be interfering with my chances of getting “real sex”.

Once I became older, and married, and came to understand that for me masturbation is better than “real sex”, that stopped.

Now my only conflict is this: when I can cut back to a couple times a week I get to have mind-blowing edging sessions and orgasms. When I masturbate every day it’s fun but not nearly as intense.

So I try to cut back, but usually fail.

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I’ve become very addicted to masturbation instruction sites over the past few years such as Masturbation School, Masturbation Instructors, povhumiliation and the British Masturbation Academy.

I also love any sites that focus legs and high heels, as I have a serious stiletto fetish – Vintage Flash, Nylon Candi, Joanne LaFontaine, Nylon Erotic, Astrids Angels. Anything with glamorous solo girls in pumps, from Betty Page to Emily Marilyn, is a sure way to get me stroking.

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I know what you mean Ron, since I discovered (only a few months ago) that I could have audio and/or video of a pretty girl encouraging me to jack off it has really pushed my masturbation to new levels.

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Ron i am also totally addicted to and dependent on pornography dealing with
female legs and feet, i love the brit mags escort, razzle, mayfair and fiesta
and as well as Leg SHow, Leg Parage, and the magazzines of Briarwood, Parliament
and Nuance publishing. i’m aTOTAL porno addict for my masturbation. i can not
masturbate wihtout uding pornography like that and have tens of thousands of web
pics espl like Southern charms gals, Candyuk, Afton, SugarBabe and Sexy marie
and Andrea. also Brit Christine (Sexy LEgs), Ala Nylons, Lady Sonia, (LOVE
watching her and her sister masturbate with machines), brit Sammy and USA Sammy.
i NEED to masturbate soooo much over that kind of fetish filth, esp when i’m
wearing a bra and panties being my sissyfag self masturbating til my little
sissy penis gets too sore to masturbate anymore. i’m SUCH a pathetic
masturbator.

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It’s funny how fetishes work. For me it’s belly buttons. I very nearly can’t cum unless I’m looking at a girl’s belly button.

Even back when I used to fuck girls, I would usually look down and gaze at her belly button as I filled her with my sperm.

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This is one of my favorite subjects. Controlling, “stopping”, and surrendering. And the shame/arousal resulting from these conflicting feelings.

Sometimes I have been forced to abstain from masturbation (or severely limited) due to travel etc. These are not voluntary withdrawals, so I eagerly look forward to returning to “normal” levels of chronic masturbation. And yes, making up for lost time.

Other times I have attempted to assert control over my habit, for various reasons. I’ve wanted to “save up” for regular sex (never worked). Or I feel I am being consumed by my habit and need to create some balance. Or I am ashamed, guilty, humiliated and want to be free. Whenever I enter a period of voluntary abstinence (or moderation) at first I feel light and free. “I’ve got control at last”. But after a period of a few days or weeks, I’m back at it more than ever, with the added realization of failing, surrendering to these irrational urges. I know again how week, pathetic, helpless, addicted I am. And it is incredibly arousing. The fact that feeling helpless makes me masturbate even more is why masturbation addiction is so incurable.

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The one thing I do “save up for” is regular sex and/or occationally just for masturbation and ejaculation of a “bigger load”. However, I don’t keep myself from masturbating, just from ejaculation. So I may masturbate every day, but not ejaculate more then once every 2-3 days. This acutually makes masturbating that much more intense then when I ejaculate everytime I masturbate. My penis stays firmer and semi erect most all of the time when I have not ejaculated in several days…this in isself is stimulating.

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I don’t have to ‘save up’ because masturbation [solo or mutual] is ‘regular sex’ for wifey and I these days, and in any case even if I’ve ejaculated a couple of times in the day, wifey can usually still milk a little more from me, and I enjoy cumming for her and on her.

Over the last few months ejaculating has become less important for me. It is not that I have made a conscious decision to cum less, much less that I am trying to control my habit because I feel no shame about enjoying masturbation and have an understanding and supportive partner. I do still enjoy ejaculating and have days when I am a real cumpig and shoot several times until I have nothing left, but most of the time for me cumming releases the tension and almost becomes an anticlimax. I love that feeling of horniness and frustration and the way they feed off each other to build the tension which encourages me to edge even more, which increases the horniness and frustration, and so on. I usually wear a cockring which also helps, as it keeps me ‘cock aware’ when I’m not wanking. My cock never goes entirely flaccid, but when soft it stays a little fleshier and heavier than normal and drools a little precum even if it has had no direct stimulation for a
while. I suppose this is a logical extension of edging where I enjoy the act of wanking as much if not more than I enjoy cumming, so that although I usually masturbate at least a couple of times a day, I only cum every two or three days.

I was comparing notes with my wife the other day after we had gone back to bed for the afternoon, and she was saying that she does not enjoy feeling frustrated if she has been fully aroused but not managed to orgasm. I asked her about the times when she absently strokes herself when she’s reading, and she said that she doesn’t really count that as masturbating because she doesn’t really touch her clitoris, and she started doing it as a young girl, long before she hit puberty. She said that she found gently stroking her pussy lips was relaxing, and even better because she didn’t have to worry about being embarrassed if I walked in on her, because she knew it would turn me on and I would probably end up wanking in front of the computer. I’m not sure whether that counts as her version of edging or not, even if she says it isn’t. Either way I suppose we both can enjoy our genitals without it inevitably leading to orgasm.

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There is a very sexy girl pacing back and forth below my window, talking on her cell phone, probably to her boyfriend. I pulled my pants down, and stood at the full-length window, barely hidden. I felt so perverted and aroused, and so humiliated to be a masturbator while this girl is making a date to fuck her boyfriend, that I came in just a couple of minutes. Cum is running down the window, behind the fax machine….

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