by EarlyBird » Sat Nov 18, 2023 1:20 pm
I have been addicted since my very beginning at an incredible young age. I can even remember my very first beginnings exactly. Not masturbating the whole day, but 1 or 2 times to the delicious sweet final dry orgasm itch in penis and even more deep in butthole. But I define myself “mentally addicted” from that very early age. A little scientist of myself: What is this that I must do every day? What is the purpose of the stiff little cock, the compulsive foreskin moving, and the itch and twitching of the butthole at the end? Why do I lose all the “dirty” thoughts for a while after? Why does the cock become small again after? – I became more informed not before puberty.
A phase of heavy masturbation addiction during my puberty – due to the mind stressing question: How do women really masturbate? I got to know, but did not know how they did for years. My personal record was 8 times a day at 13 or 14.
Nowadays, when I see a school class of about 14 years old on school trip in town I look at the boys plodding along listlessly, empty, pale faces, shadows under the eyes. Yes that was me that age. I do not envy them – especially out of convenient opportunities for their necessary 4 times the day – during this trip. Where are their thoughts now plodding along?
I still define myself masturbation addicted nowadays although the frequency has gone down due to my ripe age. But since my beloved wife has passed from the bad desease I am alone. And the whole day I think about masturbation. Female and male, young and old, mine and the others’. Just ordered an antiquarian book about masturbation for big money.
I have a lover every other week who shows me her spectacular orgasms, received by my experienced, sensitive finger on her tiny, sweet, deep hidden clitoris pearl and then by 2 clit vibrators.
Tomorrow one of the 2 best sex workers of the world will be in town. An incredibly sweet green eyed wild cat from Leningrad. (Yes, she still calls it Leningrad.) All these women are in their 40ies.
I pay a lot of money. But then there happens what I want. The female orgasm.
Source: (4) What caused your addiction? – Page 17 – Onania Masturbator Forum