by Tieguy » Sat Feb 03, 2024 1:08 am
As I am writing this from my office desk, I am wearing a three-piece suit, silky shirt and tie with a collar pin, and under my slacks, is a pair on nylon bikinis cradling my cologne covered cum filled balls. I have always been hypnotized by a broad with big tits. While like most males, I tried to spill my seed with broads when I was younger, but much to my frustrations, I was only able to prove my manhood by jerking off onto my jack-off magazines.
From the first time I saw a Jack-Off magazine, I have felt a thrill deep down in my balls when it comes to porn, despite knowing it was not appropriate for a gentleman to spill his own seed. I would jack my cock every day, covering many jack-off magazines with my wasted seed. I never understood that despite my Macho attitude and attire, why I was not able to spill my seed, like my buddies. I have come to enviously admit that some males get all the pussy they want, while the only pussy I have been able to get is from fake pussies. Do not get me wrong, I licked, sucked, fingered pussy for years. Being so close to pussy, driving me crazy with lust (and still does), but I have been denied pussy, had me Jacking off all the time.
In college, one of my buddies, told me that I needed to accept that I was what men referred to as a beta male, and that it was in my nature to not be able to spill my seed with women, not matter how much I tried. However, he suggested that I stop trying to get pussy and accept that jerking off is the best I get. At the time, I was upset, but he was being sincere, that emasculating myself every night by jerking off, was reinforcing my beta male status.