The Masturbator Pensées (Thoughts) is a collection of fragments written by chronic masturbators
Relapsed rut
I use a satisfier on the lowest setting and stick it down into my panties. I pull my pants up over it and it makes it look like I have an erect penis. I fantasize about having a big bloated goony penis in my pants while my toy suckles my clit. I grab my bonertoy and jerk it up and down like I’m masturbating my penis over my pants. I get goony and humpy and feel like I can actually feel my hand grabbing and rubbing my penis. I watch my bulge throb under my pants as my clit continues to be fellatebated. I’m really penised. It makes me want a penis to bate so bad. I’m watching straight men masturbating and frotting their penises with other men. I imagining my slick sloppy rod slopping and sliding against another meaty baterod and dribbling my slimy precum uncontrollably. I’m really batebrained rn. I’m triggered by my obvious boner in my pants. I really need to jack my penis. I really need to jerk myself off. I really need to diddle my girldick. I really need devious digits to diddle my girldong. Perversely poking my pink pussyparts makes my penis pulse. My penis is so horny rn.
Re: Secret Gay Chronic Addicted Masturbator and Gay Porn Addict
I am forced to agree with this as it is the exact path I followed those oh so many years ago. I “discovered” masturbation and became instantly obsessed with it. I definitely loved my own cock and the pleasure it brought me and yes, I became curious about other cocks and if other guys felt the same way I did. A friend and I started talking about it all in sort of a sideways way, not addressing the subject directly but alluding to it in a way that we both knew exactly what we were discussing. After a week or so of beating around the bush, we finally decided to “experiment” some and, as they say, the rest is history! Our progression went like this; straight porn led to mutual masturbation which led to sucking/being sucked which led to other, more intimate, activities. In our case this progression happened pretty quickly, a couple of weeks at most, and very soon we settled into a routine of getting together damn near every day and this continued for a solid 5 years.
Mostly because of where we lived, a small, isolated farming community, but also because of the era we were in (mid to late ’70s), any porn was difficult to get a hold of, gay porn even more so. I don’t recall ever seeing any gay porn (magazines) until my friend went to college in a bigger city and got his hands on some. We enjoyed both straight and gay porn and were both fascinated with bi porn because it better represented what we each felt deep down inside at the time.
For whatever reason, I never thought of what we did as being necessarily gay. We were just 2 horny young guys experimenting and having fun with each other. Of course when I look back at it now it was gay as fuck…lol!
Dream of Having an Oklahoma City Masturbation Buddy
I guess it will never happen. Oklahoma City is pretty conservative and although there is a large active LGBT group here. I am not out. I would so love to have a buddy around my age to get together and masturbate with. Would love to give him handjobs and suck him and share the best bond any two guys can share….love of cock and masturbation. A true friend you can also be totally naked with and explore every part of our sexuality together. I love men, I love cock, I love cum and I am totally completely addicted to masturbation. To have a buddy to share that with and to give each other incredible orgasms, what more could you ask for. I’ve given up ever finding one, but I still dream about it and cum to intense masturbation dreaming of what could happen between us. I love cock!