In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
I had discovered edging at 13, which would forever stunt my normal sexual growth
forever. I was milling about down by the tracks and found the Penthouse laying
on the ground. I rushed back to my house, snuck upstairs to the bathroom and
masturbated for 2 hours while reading the sex stories. I wanted to cum to a
nude photo after I read all the stories, and that was how I discovered edging
and the start of my life long obsession with edging. Those sex stories opened
the door for my craving of more dirtier, hardcore stuff, but it was hard to come
by in those days before the internet. So when I turned 18, I visited my first
Adult bookstore and taste of the real dirty side of porn. Seeing all those
perverted magazines, I’d thought I died and gone to porn heaven. Browsing
through the Gay magazines really opened up a whole new world too!
All the other men in the store ogling the magazines, with bulges in their pants,
and some massaging their cocks through their pants, was a shock and really
revolted me. They seemed so perverted…the dregs of society. But at the same
time, it made me feel like I was part of an underground club of degenerate
masturbators who could never, ever dream of getting normal sex and had to revert
to looking at nasty books for sexual release.
I started edging at 15 when I was able to spend days at home by myself masturbating. I so enjoyed being naked and really horny with a hard throbbing cock that I would stop myself from cumming each time I got close so I could enjoy being that horny for as long as possible.
Unfortunately it wasn’t till I was about 40 and discovered the masturbation groups on the net that I learnt about the techniques that enable me to edge even more intensily which results in my masturbatory pleasure reaching levels I never imagined possible.
I can relate. I discover Penthouse with a friend when I was 11 or 12. Nothing had ever excited me like it did! As I learned to masturbate my love of porn grew more and more.
One time at band camp (yeah, I know!) a really hot chick named Nancy asked if I could ride home with her on the bus. It would be dark and she and I could have some fun. Yet I had not masturbated in a week. My porn stash called out to me to make a choice: a long bus ride with Nancy or a quick ride home in the family car and a night in my room masturbating.
I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I had gone with Nancy but to this day I don’t regret the wave of orgasms my hand gave me as I drank in the filthy pics from Hustler and Oui that night in my room alone.
Now days I love going to adult bookstores and finding myself numbered among the perverts.
I’m with you there brother. Growing up, I was way to addicted to masturbation
to be only slightly curious of what it would be like to fuck. Cumming 3 times a
day kept me from thinking about anything else but how I was going to stroke my
cock.
your stunted sexual history is a lot like mine, Adicktedbator. i was already a masturbation freak by the time i entered college. in my teenage years i was routinely masturbating myself for hours & hours, whenver my parents and my brothers were out of the house. and if they weren’t, i too would head down by the tracks or into the nearby woods, just to be alone, get naked, and masturbate. in college, I’d sneak down to the drug store, just like you did, to buy the Penthouses, Oui’s, Playboys, etc, just to be able to see the naked men and their dicks. pussy and breasts never turned me on, but fuck was i ever addicted to males!
i was so stunted in my sexual growth, however, that it was another 8 years before i got up the courage to have sex with another man. in the intervening years, i continued my never-ending addiction to obsessive penis masturbation and edging. hours & hours & hours every week. and fuuuuuck, did i ever love it! i somehow made my life — work, friends, family, social life — work, even though i was costantly masturbating myself. my masturbation was in secret, alone, with dirty magazines & books. the dirtier, the more perverted they were (18+), the hotter it was for me. like jbryan1998, who chose a night of masturbation over the dark bus ride home with Nancy, I’ve sooo many times choosen masturbation by myself over sex with someone else. dirty, nasty, perverted masturbation — yeah!!
then i discovered XXX male theatres in Washington DC, and like you, Adicktedbator, i got really, really turned on by being among those degenerate perverts. I’d always take all my clothes off in the dark, god, but i love to be naked & edge & masturbate! guys would come over to want to suck & fuck, but i was 100% happy just to watch the dirty movies and masturbate. i guess that’s why I’ve come to accept myself as a stunted male, 100% masturbator & pervert. just writing that makes me hard, just underlines the truth about me.
since the Internet, you can just imagine how happy my penis has been! i regularly spend hours & hours & hours masturbating in front of the computer while looking at dirty pix of adult males, the more perverted the better. guys alone, stroking themselves, masturbating their penis, totally degenerate & focused on sex, are my fav pix & vids (u can imagine why). I’ve long since accepted that this is my sexual lot in life, to be a grown adult male who can’t keep his hand off his penis, who wants & craves solosexual masturbatory pleasure, so fucked up on penis that he continually reverts to the same stunted masturbatory sexual cycle. god, but i love it!!!
hotels bring out the most depraved sexual energy in me, fly traps, scuzy motels are my favs. if people just knew that a hopelessly degenerate masturbator was next door, 100% naked, monkey-like, stroking himselv obsessively & addictively, god, what would they think? shit, but i LOVE being a perverted masturbator!!!
Sounds so much like my life as well. I have become a total solosexual and
would rather jack off to porn than having a real life sex encounter. I have
rejected so many people- I would rather do myself- and I LOVE sharing my
addiciton with other solosexuals. the more depraved the more turned on I
become. I am str8t but doesn’t matter what sexual orientation you are. Men
sharing the same porn together- stroking and filthy talking to each other makes
me fucking drool. Going deeper and deeper into our bate sessions. No
inhibitions. Lewd, lust. Total solosexual not wanting to fuck pussy or
assholes.
yes me too – my life is controlled by my cock and my insatiable desire to
jack off to porn. Also like to share my addiction with other chronics and
encourage and assist each other to go deeper into solosexual lust. Pic
trading with other like minded guys is a big turn on for me. Into stroking
and filthy chat as we share material. I am incapable of fucking pussy or
asshole but have a hot handpussy for solosexual bliss.
yes me too – my life is controlled by my cock and my insatiable desire to
jack off to porn. Also like to share my addiction with other chronics and
encourage and assist each other to go deeper into solosexual lust. Pic
trading with other like minded guys is a big turn on for me. Into stroking
and filthy chat as we share material. I am incapable of fucking pussy or
asshole but have a hot handpussy for solosexual bliss.
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I too discovered the joys of masturbation at a young age of 10 or so. I remember the first time I produced cum and realized that I was on the right track!
At the same time i enhanced my masturbatory pleasures by exposing myself in public. To this day I am an avid exhibitionist and love nothing more than exposing myself to young women and stoking for them.
Not too picky, I’ll expose myself to anyone who wants to watch tho…!
An avowed solosexer – I find my own companionship preferred over sex with anyone else – other than sharing it in public of course!