when I discovered that I was Pathetic
by Jay Mayo
My quest to fulfill my sexual desires as a result of being in a sexless marriage led me to the realization that I enjoyed to masturbate. Being that I had masturbated my entire life, I guess that I already knew that, and now masturbation had replaced sexual contact with other beings, and became my primary and only sexual outlet.
I found with the help of the internet, site’s just like this one. I’ve been from cover to cover on the Onania. org site. I was viewing it, as a movie goer might. I was detached, watching, listening, and reading about other’s that had this “addiction”. Others that were unable to control their habits. I thought them to be weak, they were pathetic.
Then one day, about a year ago, I realized, hey maybe I’m pathetic. It’s not just them, it’s just not others, I was an addicted masturbator. I was an edger, I was the daily stroker. I was calling in on masturbation hot lines, I was on chaterbate. I love to masturbate, I love to edge my penis. At first it was humiliating, me an addicted masturbator, like those others. Oh but I found the humiliation, aroused me, made my penis go very hard. I became very ripe.
It’s better now, knowing what I am. Accepting my fate. I am pathetic masturbator.
— Jay Mayo