Jay Mayo: when I discovered that I was Pathetic

when I discovered that I was Pathetic

by Jay Mayo

I would like to post this short story, if it’s okay, for your” when I discovered that I was Pathetic”, section of your site.  I am so hard just typing this, I am pathetic….
I’ve masturbated regularly for most of my life.  However, it was not until this past year that I determined that I was indeed pathetic.

My quest to fulfill my sexual desires as a result of being in a sexless marriage led me to the realization that I enjoyed to masturbate.  Being that I had masturbated my entire life, I guess that I already knew that, and now masturbation had replaced sexual contact with other beings, and became my primary and only sexual outlet.

I found with the help of the internet, site’s just like this one.   I’ve been from cover to cover on the Onania. org site.  I was viewing it, as a movie goer might.  I was detached, watching, listening, and reading about other’s that had this “addiction”.  Others that were unable to control their habits.  I thought them to be weak, they were pathetic.

Then one day, about a year ago, I realized, hey maybe I’m pathetic.  It’s not just them, it’s just not others, I was an addicted masturbator.  I was an edger, I was the daily stroker. I was calling in on masturbation hot lines, I was on chaterbate.  I love to masturbate, I love to edge my penis. At first it was humiliating, me an addicted masturbator, like those others.  Oh but I found the humiliation, aroused me, made my penis go very hard.  I became very ripe.

It’s better now, knowing what I am.  Accepting my fate.  I am pathetic masturbator. 

— Jay Mayo

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