Therapy Session –  Onania Masturbator Forum

Oh i know how you feel! I’m not talking about someone who expects $$$ for “services” in a SW context. I want adults to be able to go on better help and other virtual therapy resources and to plug in our needs and a specialist list comes back at a reasonable rate compared to regular therapy can work with us through our feelings, urges, needs.

I want it to be no big deal that I start bating on our voice call session as I process my therapeutic complexity. As trauma comes up. That it’s encouraged. Getting a release I need in real time. Even a little parasocial (allowing for texting between sessions my masturbatory thoughts) for the benefit of my bonding to her and thus a more fruitful back and forth to sort my internal self out. More insights for her. More freedom to open up for me.

Really that wrong I just want to announce im in my boxers w/ my stained yellow (formerly clear) cockring hugging my shaft and separating my balls? And lightly tugging on myself when I get past shyness to be verbal “I been looking forward to our session all week. I need a good therapy session and to feel some pleasure” and to have her 60 mins with me be the start of a soothing marathon of self exploration and self-care… Truly open and beautiful. And she tells me I am worth this. And should feel free to tug and stroke to my hearts content..

“I’m really chronic today! I want to really let go and get emotional”

..Kind of annoyed at society there are these blocks to us having the kinds of therapy we might truly benefit from! I get nothing out of traditional talk therapy. It’s a waste of my money, and their time. If normies don’t want this type of connection that’s fine. Don’t do it. I bet some therapists would be open to catering to a masturbator clientele but it’s all clinical, closed off from a culture of litigiousness; and imposed ethics on the industry saying you can’t.

Of course I love the shame arousal cycle of frustration this outlet doesn’t exist. And I am too poor to simulate it, and even if I had $$$ too against it being exploited by sharks circling for money. I am loser tugging a semi-erect penis to the vulnerability of us all who are mastubators. Who are bicurious and wanking to our emotional support dreams of maybe one day getting this maternal infused therapy! Like Christee teased on page one.. Ngggh

Yes, I’ve seen two therapists face to face and I’ve had two others on-line. I told them I’m addicted to porn and masturbation. I wanted to quit or get control of my addiction. They didn’t help me and I don’t think they knew how. I’ve also been a member of three no-fap website communities. For the most part they were the blind leading the blind.

None of the therapists asked probing questions about my behavior while indulging. I got the feeling they didn’t really want to know. I’d love to tell someone everything. I have a fantasy of being exposed as the pervert I really am. At the same, there are people I care about I want to hide it from. To keep it from them I hide it from everyone I know. I live alone and work at home so it’s not difficult.

I’ve realized I don’t really want to quit but I have gained more control over myself and my addiction. Far from complete control but better. What I’m working on now is accepting my addiction to porn and masturbation, to accept myself and get over the guilt. Psychology’s view is that a sexual fetish isn’t a problem unless the fetishist thinks it is, as long as they’re not hurting anyone else. I feel some guilt and shame b/c I’ve been indoctrinated to, not b/c I really think I’m doing anything wrong. I’m not hurting anybody and I love masturbating to porn. So if I can just clear the junk out of my head I’ll be a lot better off. It’s a process but I’m feeling a lot less shame and guilt than I did before.

I understand the frustration some of my fellow masturbators have expressed about therapy. Most of the therapy out there that I’m aware of is designed to get us to quit masturbating. Indulging in a dom/sub relationship can be beneficial and this is documented in psychology. I’ve thought about trying to engage in one but haven’t mustered up the nerve. I’m also not sure I want to spend the $ required. I honestly think I have to deal with my issues myself when if comes to my identity as an addicted masturbator. I don’t think I have other options.

I’d love to see a female therapist in person who told me to masturbate and ridiculed me while I jerked my dick. Or a male therapist who told me to get him off. Either one would be incredibly hot and truly therapeutic.