Yes I call myself a lonely masturbator. Even though I talk to many bate bud gooners who feel SO much like me. Sharing and exposing our minds on discord, on tumblr, on twitter, on anywhere I can find it, FB, you name it… I love feeling lonely even though I have my share of non-sexual intimacy that is so deep, relationships that are fulfilling. People who love me. Online a lil girl I have a deep connection with who I known over 5 years who loves to call me Daddy.
I love admitting how much I love to masturbate. Barely hiding just how much of my day I let it take up. How much I want to be on chat programs and sexting and voicing with anyone who loves porn and masturbation. A female from the gooning communities I’m in would be nice…
At this point IRL I’m sabotaging close bonds that could be more and choosing to be an edging addict except for the lips of a fatty older woman who has a DDlg kink I satiate, with my dominant side (comes out best in person). I have fucked her a handful of times over the 18 months knowing her but now edging daily and keeping all this cum in my balls. Only allowing leaks to relieve the swelling nuts? Just feels too good. Worshiping porn this way.
I myself seek a soothing Mommy energy. It’s the one thing missing from my sex life. A caretaker Mom role, anyone will do, seriously. I love so many different types of body most women don’t think I would like them. Just want Mommy to fuck my brain with porn and my goon urges. Push me always more into addiction. I want her to corrupt me. I love to call myself pathetic, and a masturbator. For the thrill. It’s intoxicating. Any older woman who let me call her mommy would be heaven, it would be a bonus if she abused my humiliation kink :D
Truth is I can attract just-kind-of-average women IRL pretty easily. I have one stunner mature who is from my country we could have met up. I really feel MOST attached to her if I’m honest. I confess my masturbation to her all the time and she gives back a lot of nasty energy to fuel what dominance exists for “sex” these days, and sparks my unashamed dirty side. Loves my masturbation and depraved addictions… even though to read about me here you think I’m merely only an age regressed virgin beta masturbator — I’m both. I love being lonely and isolating away in my depression to cope w/ life, and being surrounded by chronic addicted masturbation energy for the rest of my goon session.
We can be lonely as humans even in a vibrant social setting. I love FEELING lonely. Creepy. Exposed. Addicted. Fucking LOVE myself this way. Why change when I get such pleasure, such bliss and this totally FREE high all day long? Wrecked, ruined, goooooooning.
Wank wank wank. Stroke stroke stroke. Moan. Get verbal. Show your “goon face” proudly. Lonely batetard with loser fetish ngggh Seeking soothing Motherly tits to nurse me as I pump pump pump endlessly Mmmmm
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