Because I was handsome and slender as a young man I had lots of girlfriends. They all dumped me after a while when it became clear to them that I wasn’t interested in having penetrative sex. None of the girls knew my reticence was due to embarrassment over my micro penis. I would kiss and fondle but never take off my clothes or attempt to take off their clothes. Of just the ones off the top of my head with whom I had many month’s long relationships who ultimately dumped me: Nicki L., Laurie B., Maj J., Pam DiG.( she even asked me, “Don’t you wanna have sex with me?!”), Laura F. (I overnighted with her in her bed and never “tried” anything), Pam DiP., Pat K. ( she shouted at me, “Are you gonna fuck me or what?!”), Sharon S., Patti K. (my ex-wife who divorced me for non-consummation of marriage),Debbie M. (my first experience as a sex-denied live-in cuckold), Inez W. (my last experience as a sex-denied live-in cuckold), Mistress Becky (expensive! dominatrix who dumped me!). Gosh, many more.
Since Debbie M. cucked me, I’ve evolved into a muscle and big cock worshipping sissy, pussyless, chronic masturbating, pornosexual, total loser. I love it !
I love my history with women… I attracted cougars twice my age and slutty younger puss all in my late teens and into mid 20’s. All into the emo looks and my “confidence” but that was linked to making females laugh (terrible, awful at now!). And I am a good kisser, sexy in physical chemistry. But penetration was never good. I failed almost every time.
Such a loser wanker!
The reason is I never wanted to do it. I got horny to do sex but when naked with them and getting to the “stick it in me” phase my PPAD rose up each time. Then I over time loved failing secretly. I let it embarrass me. The list of actual girls is long… but the highlights that sting most are Sarah I., Amanda, Melissa, Diana, Natasha, Katrina, Peach, Kobi, Kate, Naomi, Amy, Louise, Jasmin.. and of course longtime friendzoned masturbator for Emma.
p.s Amy latest crush I still hold out hope… might have fucked me. Might have even given me barely coded signs a couple diff times hanging out. But she also probly would have soon after rejected me. So I took her lack of encouragement/enthusiasm over hearing about my masturbation sessions (over thoughts of us ‘drug bonding’) as my loser rejection!
Some men, like me, just aren’t made to fuck. I always dated “safe” religious girls that made sure I stayed a virgin. I was able to date one girl 9 months and we never did anything but kiss!
I love being a pussy free masturbator. I always have.