Can’t cum hard – Onania Masturbator Forum

I am admittedly a phatetic masturbator and I am not reallly care anymore. My GF know it and she lets me do it. Even if I have some pussy penetration disorder and cant go really fully hard by now i still can fuck her when she needs me to. She says she is satisfied with it. The truth is next to me she is becoming more and more a masturbator too. I really do not mind it and i think also really would not mind if we would go completly sexless.
(i must be really phatetick if i got a rock hard on as i am typing this )

As i can live as masturbator and do not really care how i make myself cum i think i am trained myself completly to ruin all my orgasms. Even if i jack it off to cum not for edgeing and my goal is to cum and ejaculate,let it fly everywhere all over myself by now my cock is slowly spilling my cum out. No hard cumming, just slowly flowing out semen. I did not really realized this or i aoway thought that it is for the constant cock abuse i doing to myself.

But tested it. I was absent from porn for almost two weeks (not really by choice) and even after it i cannnot let my cum spurt all over my chest. Just the slow relaxed creamy flow.

I am not saying i dont love it but i really miss the heavy spurting. I love to ejaculate my semen on things and i love to leave kinky cum stains on things. But i think i have to cope with that the spurting day are over…

Anyone out there with the same experience?