In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
From the time I was a small kid I seemed to be in one situation or another where I saw grown men and their cocks. My Dad used to always wake up with a boner and he was never embarrassed or ashamed to walk down the hall scratching or rubbing his balls.
Usually there were Uncles or other relatives around. While I was not sexually molested as a kid I would say that I was sexualized at a very early age.
At the age of 11 I was staying at my Aunt and Grandmother’s house in Los Angeles. It was a two bedroom apartment. My cousin and I would have one room, my Aunt the other and my grandmother slept on the couch.
The next day my Aunt and my Grandmother decided to do a big shopping at the store. They asked my older cousin if he could keep an eye on me that we could hang out together while they did the shopping.
So my cousin said, “yeah that’s okay.” As soon as they left we went into the back bedroom. I turned on the TV in the room and put on a show.
My cousin then asked me if I “jacked off?” I said, “no what is that?” My cousin then unzipped his jeans…..pull down his underwear down to his knees….and then he proceed to stroke his cock. It was awesome as I was 11 and he was 13 so his dick seemed huge.
We never did jack off together but the next time I was invited to jack off, I did it. That happened the next summer when one of my neighborhood boyfriends Mark was invited to stay with me at my Aunt and Grandmothers. Their place was cool they were older ladies but very nice to us boys.
This was summer time so we would be at their house for like 7 to 10 days. By the second night Mark wanted to know if I “jacked off.” I said “I did not but wanted to learn…”
Later that night another cousin showed up with his Mom and the other cousin ended up spending the night with us. He slept in a sleeping bag while me and Mark were in the big bed together.
As soon as the lights went out my friend Mark started to take off his pajama bottoms. I did the name.
He then proceeded to jack me off. He did this like an expert, I was like 12 years old, he was 12 years old and we had great time. This was my first time jacking off another guy. Man did I love it.
Through out the week we continued to jack off each day. Then Mark took it to the next step and we wanted to know if I had ever “had a blow job…” Of course I said, “nope,” so Mark explained what it was and I said “wow.” My question to him was “If you suck my cock will I pee in your mouth?” Mark explained that “when you get a boner from a hand job or a blow job, you will get hard and start to ooze sperm….you won’t ever pee.”
So that night I let Mark go down and suck my cock. He was gliding his mouth up and down on my cock for a good 40 minutes…….and oh yeah, I had an amazing cum….the best.
Yes I returned the favor and sucked his cock too. I loved it too.
The next summer we were able to do this again. The big shift the next year….I was now like 14 was the amount of cum (sperm) I could shoot and the fact that I had to do it like 2 or 3 times a day…..I was a full on horny teenager.
My Masturbation habit was very strong. One day my Grandmother came out to my parents to spend a couple of days with us. I just had to jack off and went to my bedroom. Before leaving the room I told my Grandmother that I was going to lay down a take a nap.
My Grandmother did a bunch of laundry and maybe forgot what I said…I don’t know.
Within 10 minutes of being in my room my cock was in my hand and I was stroking at a steady rate. I was standing next to the bed….and then……
……bang, the door flew open as my Grandmother walked into my room with a white basket of laundry. Fully erect I could not stop stroking so I grabbed my T-Shirt and quickly flung it over my hard cock. My Grandmother smiled and said “don’t worry about that honey, I’ve seen plenty of men play with themselves. In fact masturbation is good for you and you should do it whenever you feel like it. Sorry to disturb you.” Next, she closed the door behind her.
Within a minute or two I had recovered and started to stroke my cock again to a full on hard on. It was a powerful orgasm with lots of come.
It floored me that it happened. There was some kind of thrill in having been caught. Since I actually slept in the same room as my Grandmother from time to time I started to quietly jack off in front of her. I’d wait until she turned off the TV and the lamp on her side of the room. (It was two beds — separate that were sort of pushed together — with Grandmother on the right hand side and me on the left hand side.”
I’d take the blind and turn it open just enough so you could see my cock when I was jacking off. Not bright light, more like night light and still hot just the same especially in a dark room.
Over the next year whenever I stayed at my grandmother’s house I’d jack off in front of her at night most of the time….of course of was super discreet and I actually heard my grandmother masturbate a couple of times.
Let me know your thoughts on what I have just written about. This is in my own hand and this all really happened to me but I did not if it was too personal for my blog…which is located at: chronicsolo.blogspot.com which reports on my chronic masturbation and sexless marriage. Let me know your thoughts here or write to me personally at chronicsolo@gmail.com
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