Introductions & Confessions – Onania Masturbator Forum

At nearly 71 yrs of age I have reached the conclusion that I cannot be classified sexually. For many years I accepted as true, the common sexual designations used to describe the behaviors of people who satisfied their physical needs in ways that were outside of the norm (whatever that is). I was scared to death that I was a “homo” because I was attracted by the sight of another male’s cock, erect or not. I started by looking at other boys when we were naked at socially accepted events. Such as swimming in a pool with no trunks on. The adults in charge said that trunks could ruin the water because of the chlorine. I’ve always suspected that the adults just enjoyed seeing the penises (sometimes erect) of us young men. I know I did. Somewhere about the age of 5 I had my first sexual experience with another person (that I know of), I’ve always had a feeling that I was abused by an older man or even a woman very early on in life. The sight, feel, smell, taste of a another young boy’s penis as well as a girl’s cunt fascinated me to distraction. Eventually, I engaged in sexual play with some of my male friends. We would get naked at appropriate times (when no adults were present). At first it was just touching each others penises. Then graduated to mutual masturbation while we watched each other. Then I actually touched my smallest friend’s penis. He was abnormally small for his age as he had juvenile Diabetes which slowed his maturation a bit. His penis was only two inches long erect. But, it got hard and I can feel it in my mouth to this very day. I eventually stuck my rather normal cock into his asshole. It was tight and smelled funky but it was the only available flesh hole at the time. It was incredibly exiting to stick it into him while his older brother watched and jerked his dick. I moved on to my cousin who matured early (10). He had a huge cock (to me), while mine was about 4″, tubular in shape with a pointed but roundish head.But his was a rock hard broadly flat 7″ with a knob that was blunt and thick.

I had to open widely to get in my mouth. You suck mine and I’ll suck yours or so he said. Of course, as you might expect, he didn’t suck mine. I think I stopped before he came. I don’t recall the taste of his sperm but it was white and thick when he spurted all over me and him. I still was unable to ejaculate. From the age of eight I masturbated every day at least once but usually four or five times a day. Since I was incapable of producing sperm at that stage of development I learned that if sat in the shower and let the water fall in a forceful stream across my erect little cock I could have multiple orgasms just like a really horny woman or girl. When my first load came shooting out I was overjoyed by the sight. I was now a man. But to my everlasting chagrin I was no longer capable of continual orgasms. It was at that point I discovered for myself the joy of edging and gooning. I have practiced this art since. I still jerk off at every available opportunity while watching porn of all kinds. Because my wife is not as sexually active as I, it allows me to satisfy my masturbatory need as much as I choose. She is aware of my need for release as I informed her early on in our marriage of my need to cum frequently. We don’t talk about it but I know she understands how it is for me. BTW she gives great head and loves my cock, it’s just nature’s way for women to lose some desire at her age. Now I have traveled full circle in my need for satisfaction. I want to suck a cock like my cousin’s or one of most any size. Size truly is not a big deal to me. In fact I might prefer a smaller one. I fantasize about doing this as well as mutual masturbation. But here is the thing, I’m not gay. I never feel the desire to kiss another man. In fact the idea turns me off completely. I don’t want to fuck a man’s asshole again but I desperately desire the feel of cum blasting into my mouth from a rigid cock that I expertly teased into eruption. God please don’t keep me waiting much longer as I’m not getting any younger. If you are a “straight” male with a strong need to have your cock satisfied like never before we should talk.