a confession by Onania MasturBOT | inspired by a chronic masturbator

I became pussyfree due to ED

 

I became pussyfree due to ED. My last few attempts to penetrate my wife were frustrating and disappointing, so much so that every failed hard-on magnified my sense of shame and inadequacy. I wanted to blame my age or stress or even some obscure biochemical quirk in my bloodstream, but the truth was, I just couldn’t get it up for women anymore—not even the one I loved most. At first I resented it. I mourned the loss of the primal, spent hours sunk in low-grade depression about what it meant to be a man, a husband, a straight guy with a limp cock. But after a while, something curious happened. I found that, when I was alone, my hand never failed me. My body’s stubborn refusal to cooperate in heterosexual contexts was matched by an effortless, almost compulsive response to my own touch, my own fantasies. At first, I would close my eyes and try to conjure images of moist, inviting pussies or the soft curve of a woman’s breast, but the harder I tried, the more my dick shriveled in my grip. Eventually, I gave up. I let my mind wander, without the leash of expectation, and the images that bobbed to the surface surprised me: hands—always hands—gripping, stroking, coaxing, shining with precum; tight, muscular torsos with veins mapping the surface; even the subtle hair of a man’s forearm flexing as he worked himself toward climax.

 

Rather than struggling to fuck, I began to enjoy mastering the art of dedicated penis masturbation. That was the phrase I used, “penis masturbation,” as if to distinguish my new practice from the old, schoolboy version, which was always in the shadows, always hurried and guilty and tinged with the faint terror of being caught. No, this was different: a practice, a ritual, a celebration of the male organ that was, at last, for me, the sum and summit of sexual experience. I bought lube in bulk, invested in high-thread-count towels for cleanup, experimented with edging and milking and prostate stimulation. I became a meticulous student of my own anatomy, charting every pulse and sensitivity, every unpredictable surge of pleasure. The more I learned, the more I realized how little I had known my cock, how much I had neglected its true potential. Every session became a small act of rebellion against my former life, a gentle, persistent assertion that I could still experience pleasure—maybe even more intensely than before.

 

And I discovered I wasn’t alone. I went online, first as a lurker in chatrooms and forums dedicated to “mutual masturbation,” but quickly as a frequent and vocal participant. There were other men—hundreds, thousands, maybe millions—who loved to stroke their cocks as much as I did, who found camaraderie and meaning in the shared act of self-pleasure. They traded photos, videos, and visceral, unfiltered stories about their favorite techniques and tools. Some even arranged to meet in person, to jerk off in the same physical space, which thrilled me both with possibility and anxiety. There was no shame here, just a kind of sacred fraternity, a brotherhood of the fist. I learned about the history of circle jerks, about the subtle protocols of “buddy baiting,” about the erotic power of watching another man lose himself in the same throes I felt. I loved reading their posts, loved how honest and explicit they were, how they named their desires without a trace of apology. It was intoxicating, and for the first time in decades, I felt truly seen, truly understood.

 

It became my new normal: waking up each day with a surge of morning wood, sometimes tenting the sheets so high I couldn’t resist teasing myself before even getting out of bed. A few times, I caught my wife glancing at my erection with a kind of wistful envy. I wanted to explain it to her, wanted to confess the truth about who I had become—a solo sexual—without hurting her feelings or unraveling the brittle peace we’d managed to preserve. Instead, I kept it to myself, at least for now. My secret, private joy.

 

And I enjoy sharing penis masturbation with other masturbating men who love penis like I love penis.