i’m straight but chosen to pursue my solo sexual lifestyle

a masturbator wrote:

i’m straight but chosen to pursue my solo sexual lifestyle

and grown a strong homoerotic penis fixation toward images of penises of other masturbators, video of edging bators
and enjoy gay men company naked and masturbating naked..

[[ below is my email to a fellow bator correspondence named luke, who’s gay, and while i am straight, i through masturbation, solo sexual love for my penis, no longer ashamed of it’s 5.0″ inch size, and feel confident sexually around anyone…]]  

reading your emails always turn me on… your pictures provide the visual evidence of your auto-phallophilia in chronic masturbation… your words describe emotions and thoughts of the freedom, liberty and pleasure & ecstasy to be one’s self, alone, naked, or just pantless.. naked essentially the waist down if cold, totally naked, but mainly ERECT, sexually aroused, burned in male sexual lust, your lubed hands grip your shiny greased penis, stroking it, soaking in pleasure it brings .. alone with your true sexual partner, your penis… ever demanding, never satisfied enough, demanding attention.
i pause reading to gaze at my penis, cockringed, greased shiny, in my left albolene lubed palm, fingers.. stroking subconsciously in social minded, excitement .. praising you for “getting it”
turned on knowing your lust is fueled writing the things only truely truely we both know cofirming one another, cosigning with understanding our personal relationship we both have for our penis, our solo sexual auto phallic lust to our COCKS  – a “phallo-narcissism” as our civilized conscious yeilds to our primal forces commanded by our COCKS .. fixated.. i am fixated on my PENIS, making me moan, goon out babbling phallocentric words, I LOVE MY PENIS, as i yield acknowledging my penis as an entity, the i is the public minded me… my penis, my Cock my true self, primal me.. dominating my public mind.. as i get older, my penis conquers more of me… anywhere, anytime my penis would call upon me, and more i lose ground in resistance, making time off work, dedicating days off to indulge willingly, submitting to masturbation..
gooned chants and mantras solidifying, permanently as acceptable my chosen sexual pleasure, and my more and more dominating, my scheduled time to freely fixate on my COCK, as open my door, my pants begins dropping, stopping by the counter to scoop a dab of albolene to coat my swiftly erecting penis.. i always pause a little to watch my hand lovingly apply to my nodding throbbing erect COCK… my COCK is so hot.. so arousingly sexy.. its hard not to moan to the 1st 5 strokes..
going to my laptop, placed near my bed, the edge of my bed has an electric blanket with a wool blanket on it, and two sheets – my washed once a week cumrags .. and get excited to read your emails… read edging guys blogs, and like you I get fueled writing about my penis fixated addiction & COCK THOUGHTS of my chronic masturbatory solo sexualism… sharing freely to the internet, world wide seekers of sexual identity, men like you luke, and myself… confessing the true me, the MAN-COCK, my phallonarcissism .. auto penis fixated sexual lust & sexual liberal acceptance and internal voice encouraging homoerotic lust and arousal in confronting another chronic masturbatory solo sexual men of all adult ages, shape, sizes.. triggering empathic social community longing, a sexual brotherhood toward one another no matter the preferred chosen orientation, a bond around our common dominating sexual relationship with our penises – married to our primal husbandry OUR COCK.
i get fucking horny loving my penis, reading how your chronic masturbatory solo sex is filled with your primal spirit of your COCK, guide you beyond procreative drive of sex, take over our minds, behavior, what little resistance of our minds is fixated on our penis..
my penis polluted my mind with lewd lust in cocklust, fixation in my environment, words like penis and cock or dick, dong.. my heart skips a beat in addicted masturbatory lustful penis fixation.. i rationally blank out shame or embarrassment acknowledging my silly goofiness being lost in my cock my penis my phallic pleasures gooning, happy being stupid fixated on penis,
reading your own penis fixation – makes me excited to know another rational man of good standing, sane thinking share exactly the same dizziness indulging in penis masturbation, deep in phallic fixation, & cock thoughts, unashamed slaves to our penises
type with my right hand ( iphone ) then pause, then masturbate with my left looking at my COCK.. i love my cock
i love my penis
i love thinking cock thoughts
i love lusting homosexually my erect COCK
i am happy indulging myself in sexual cock fixated lustful masturbation
i love feeling horny reading your total self fixation of your cock,
i love feeling homoerotic phallic lust along with you as you lustfully love loving your erect cock..
i love feeling horny & masturbating my hard cock thoughts of knowing my audienceship to your letters make you horny, and masturbate –  my masturbating to your masturbation fueled by your arousal telling me how much you are deep in cock thoughts, penis fixated chronic addiction to the LUST to masturbate,
i love being horny & aroused thinking of your masturbatory driven lust to anticipate moments to be alone being immersed in your addiction to phallic lust, pleasures, in chronic masturbation
i love feeling intense arousal, being horny in lustful thoughts i am not alone in level of ecstasy, bliss state of mind, lewd pig sex’d lust for my own penis..

stroking my cock now…

i love my penis

i happily being lewd and lasciviousness of male lust we BOTH KNOW

my penis is incontrol
my penis makes me feel stupid
and i am glad i feel stupid in lust
chanting
penis penis penis!
peee-
(stroke down my cock)
nissssss!
(stroke up my cock)
penis penis penis!

pausing and letting go my penis,
to look at the most hottest arousing sight…
i love being horny looking at my cock
i love getting intensely aroused – stroking my greased in albolene ( i love getting a instant boner in CVS upon seeing and finding an albolene jar)

luke i am glad to be aroused opening your attachement tagged emails –
anticipating to open it and behold your glorious manifestation of the sexual lust we both share in common

i gladly feel no guilt to call in work on an unimportant work day to masturbate to your newest emails

mmm
mmmmmmm

stroking my essence of my primal self, resistance to him is futile
feels so good, a vicious feeding cycle of lust & pleasure loving my penis, my penis feeding me pleasures so good, yet never enough…
orgasms’ post ejaculatory refractory periods eventually crumble to my priapus possessed penis’ primal masturbatory lust..

i love slight edge fails of pre cum and seminal fliud ran down my shaft then instantly spread throughout my strokes of my demanding penis, ordering me to fixate on him now, love him,

i love living alone to be naked or not wear underwear, or pants.. i love it!!
my penis days at home is free to be flaccid, swing around.. be erect.. be masturbated

i love how my coat and hat rack is also my pants rack… underwear, briefs or boxers hang next to my jeans or chosen pants by my door..

i love verbally turning away spontaneous or unannounced, or without an appointment to visit, visitors i am masturbating with a novelty sign in my window.. i say ” ..’busy at the moment!” come back later!” and let out a grunting moan! lol

these next 3 days i am off… tuesday i have a visitor cut into my masturbatory time.. but i may cut that time short and sweet or be exposed to my ritual habit of rubbing my crotch.. as a hint or invite to indulge with me… either or, .. my old social self is losing ground.. resistance is futile (to masturbate) pulses my thinking breaking more or my resistive self.. my public persona, my social protocol modus operadi… (slowly being conquered to living and sustain a total masturbatory life) .. less regular peers, more penis masturbators peers are met, the focus of my life is to eventually be fixated on my penis, deep in masturbation 24/7.. even if i have to join a tantric homosexual ashram of male sexual energy in edging jack off sessions.. commune..

this is my cock thoughts..
my penis fixated lustful philosophical emotional being while masturbating my greased cockringed cock…
my sexual partner..
so i must end this letter, to meet his insatiable demand for my total attention