By the time I graduated from my all-male private high school, I was telling other males that I considered myself to be a very conservative Macho Male, who believed in strong family values to justify the cum stains on my Jack-Off magazines to my buddies. I knew that other males laugh at me, and even refer to as a Jerk-Off, but I would never change, in fact, I think it cemented my Macho attitude or attire.
I have always dated world class cockteasers and my Blue Balls are their trophy. It is a proven fact that a Macho Male’s sperm is the most potent sperm. Denying me any release of sperm from my balls is the ultimate male emasculation because it is also, a well-known fact that all males are biologically engineered to spread our seed. Wasting my seed, by Jerking off adds to my male emasculation. I must have known this from a young age because I always made it a point to spill my seed all over my Jack-Off magazines to prove my manhood. Not to mention the emasculation when another male found my Jack-Off magazines.
My best buddy, Reed was the first man to call me out as a beta male. My other good buddy, Frankie, was the first to suggest that Blue Balls was all I could handle from the broads I dated and now being in my late fifties, I believe they are right.
To be continued….
by goonerpervert » Thu Jun 20, 2024 4:55 am
I would say at this point humiliation fetish comes out in my masturbation nearly half the time. I love talking dirty to myself all the filth in my brain. So I loved reading all these words. Feeling a kinship with another masturbator male. A straight identifying like me. Who has secrets. You with underwear, beta, jerk-off tendencies. Me with hidden cocklust, humilation, beta.
The old me was straight as they come. But over the years I got into edging. Which got me into cocks edging. Which got me into looking at cocks more in PORN. This lead to me focusing on the cocks in every other session. Like blasting cum facials. And closeups inside pussy and ass. The veins reminds me of my dong in my virile 18-25.
Masturbating with males excited me. I didn’t admit it to myself it was always “the porn sharing” that got me off. Not true masturbating cock is arousing. Cocks in fleshlights. Cocks in toys. Cocks in hands wanking them proudly. The older I got the more I let the lines blur. It got me in the headspace to REALLY embrace gooning from like 2012-2014. Age 30 began my “beta masturbation” flirting. Each phrase of a gooner became more enticing. One by one I loved them all. Pumper. Fistfucker. Handhumper. Mommy’s goon. Loser boi. Bate freak.
You are jerking off because you can’t access any other satisfaction. I am wanking because I love being a pathetic wanker. Succumb to this. Chasing dopamine and pleasure!!