Onania Masturbator Forum: Masturbator 7911 confesses

In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:

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Hello there Richard:

The following is a piece I wrote some time ago, about an epeirence I had a few years back. I am also masturbator 7911 that calls in frequently. Sadly, i dont have a laptop or computer, instead just a tablet and am unable to listen to wank bank links– and that is a bummer because i very much enjoy leaving messages and listening to them again, and again and again as I stroke my penis.

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I spend a lot of time with my penis. Stroking and tugging at it, rubbing it through my clothing, and up against solid objects (especially in public).  I have a rather beautiful cock, 7.5 inches long, thick and uncut. I have a tendency to pre-cum profusely,so a lot of times my underwear and pants are stained by the end of the day. 

This morning I woke up desperately horny, and I knew it would be hours before i had time alone to properly and satisfyingly stroke and pleasure myself. All day at work,  I found myself sneaking off to remote corners of my workplace to rub my insistant boner against furniture and other objects. I can’t let myself get too turned on because my dick is very noticable if am aroused.

I promised myself that once  I got home I would take the time to worship my penis to a mind blowing orgasm.
The day dragged, i became short tempered and anxious, trying to stave off my addiction for a few more hours…Finally I got to go home. As soon as I was in the car, my pants were unbuttoned and my dick free to throb and drool in the open air. I stopped at a red light and started to stroke myself, moaning loudly at the intense relief. I knew the guy in the next car heard me, I could see him looking over, front the vantage point of his tall truck, I know he saw my cock red and throbbing.

I finally got home, and went straight for my livingroom. The main window faces a busy street that is also a truck route (HOT). I set up all my supplies, my cock lazily drooling between my legs. The ritual of setting up further fueling my lust.
I laid out on the couch, legs spread, porn poppers and all other needed supplies. I started out with some of my favorite porn featuring other chronic masturbatotrs– especially those who moan and groan– that gets my cock going like nothing else. Slowly I can feel my lust rising– I stand up from the couch and open the shades to the big window– now the whole street has a perfect view of my erection, my eposed member begging to be stroked and brought to orgasm…

Here’s where I stop being a fully concious human being. I am ruled by my lust and this overwhelming need to masturbate,masturbate,masturbate.  So I do, stroking my penis, and chanting phrases that push me deeper into my cock lust.
“I love my penis, my penis my fucking penis”
“I love to stroke my penis, make my penis shoot cum’
“I Want to shoot my cum everywhere”

My balls are full and swollen, they bounce and ache as I attend to my masturbator penis.  Reminds me of being a teenager and being so desperately horny Id stick my penis in everything– anything just to feel those amazing sensations. I continue to stroke, slowly, using poppers to goon out like an animal. I tweak my nipples, repeatedly, denying my cock the satisfaction of the stroking sensation momentarily.

I live across the street from a busy neighborhood bodega and gas station. People are constantly coming and going at all hours of the day and night, and my big window faces it directly. Sometimes people definitely see me, completely naked and consumed by my penis worship. I have fantasies of them joining me. The young man that works across the  street I know has seen me, and watched me briefly when he thought no one was watching. My guess is he’s no older than 18 or 19. So, you know its all about what makes his cock twitch.  One day I hope to lure him over for a wank, He looks hung in those chinos he has to wear for work.

Even though I am a gay man, predominantly. (about 90% of the time) Tits still make me so goony when I’m really deep in it. Especially huge tits. Big dicks fucking huge tits, oily BBW tits… milf tits are my favorite. Older women, especially in incest porn make my cock fuckin leak precum so much. I  look down and there’s a thin rope of precum all the way down to the floor. and a few drops on my hardwood. I’ve been tweaking my nipples and looking at tits on my tablet screen propped up against the window. My cock begs me for attention, and I give in because I am a helplessly addicted masturbator. I am addicted to the penis orgasms, the cum shooting out of my cock.

So I start to stroke, slow and deliberate, but losing control about 2 minutes in because I want to fuck and shove my dick in tight holes but theres not anyone for me to fuck, I spend so much time pleasing my penis I dont have time to maintain relationships not based around penis worship.
stroke.
stroke.
stroke.
POPPER HIT.

A rush runs down my spine and my cock bulges and throbs.

FUCK YES.
I am moaning and grunting now, full bellows from my chest. My balls are so tight they ache and I grab my fleshlight, my plastic pussy hole to fuck  stumble to the front door, fling it open and force my dick into the fleshlight.

UNNNNGGGGFF

I want everyon to know how horny exposing my masturbation habit makes me. I stick the fleshlight in between the railing of the porch and slide myself in and out trying to keep control of my orgasm.
one more hit of poppers and IM GONE.
full tilt humping my plastic hole, fucking naked and moaning and torturing my nipples and I feel it, building in my balls first, then my ass, then its inevitable.

I AM CUMMING.
SO HARD
multiple ropey squirts of sperm inside the fleshlight
FUCK I moaned really loud.
I know I did.
I am sure my neighbors heard and saw and are probably calling the cops
But I cant bring myself to care. I just stay gooned out, post orgasmic, and slowly humping, luxuriating in the incredible orgasm.

unable to stop myself, again.

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Good morning Richard:

I am a frequent (everyday) visitor to Onania.org for the last two years or so. The idea/theory of chronic addicted .masturbatory behavior is facisnating to me, while the practice of it is also a large part of my life.

I love my penis, it brings me indescribable pleasure and I write fiction and non fiction work about masturbation.

Some of the themes that really make my penis hard are incest,capture/kidnapping,huge tits, cocks/testicles that have been vaccum “pumped” to be big and swollen, public masturbation, public orgasms, public sex. Uncontrollable urges, desperation,hypnosis, and other mind control things also excite me.

Richard, writing just this email my dick is throbbing between my legs insistantly. I would love to be a contributing masturbator- in writing.I have many fiction and non fiction masturbation stories, technique articles, and mantras i use when masturbating my penis to orgasm..

I will sign off for now, I must go masturbate, because I’m a masturbator.

Gooning,

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