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Hot AF big tit big ass gf, yet a pathetic bator fetishizing loserdom and failure
Post by jack_n_ice » Mon Jul 08, 2024 6:43 pm
Partner told me recently I’m a porn addict. Even though she’s short, cute, curvy, with amazing big tits, huge areolas and nipples, a lucious thicc booty and has a juicy fat pussy that grips like a vice, is always wet and loves to be pounded as hard and fast as possible, and squirts super soaker loads easily, I’m having trouble satisfying her, going limp, causing her to sigh in frustration and lower my self-esteem more even though it makes me horny for hand pussy.
I’m going to the comfort of porn whenever she’s asleep or even in the other room. She’s caught me several times dick-in-hand which is very humiliating, and caught me stealing her underwear to jerk off in. I know she’s started to see me as less than a man because she says so often. I feel it’s just a matter of time until she fucks someone else, probably not even caring to go behind my back or sneak around she thinks so little of me.
Started fetishizing humiliation, porn addiction, limp, etc recently. Extreme porn viewing habits, straight/bi/gay anything really. BDSM, huge toys, bizarre setups, added cucking recently after resisting for years. BDSMlr caption gif porn, joi, cei, ruined o’s. Anal training whenever I have time. Ruining my cock erection power even more by using rubber bands too tightly or string to tie my genitals too tightly in rediculous shapes. Slowly the micro cappilaries get damaged, permanently worstening erectile strength.
Also started using the recreational substance ‘ice’ in the past year, been really enjoying that, and it definitely laces perfectly with porn habits to reinforce both.
Generally, enjoying the slide of depravity all the way down, who knows where it will end?
I feel it’s what I deserve bc I’m so pathetic, and I’m so pathetic bc this is what I do.
Down to talk anything, hmu, psychology, neuroscience, pharmacology, behavior programming, philosophy, etc or just be a depraved derelict with ya.
Re: Have you reached any masturbation goals?
post by mstrbate69 » Wed Nov 20, 2024 2:26 pm
I really envy those who had a chance to set up a real masturnation cave. A room only dedicated to masturbation. I edge myself during sleepless night’s that I own one and have Porn on multiple screen unashamedly.
As an accepted masturbator by my GF our whole apartment is my Masturbation cave but it is not the same. I have rules to follow and it is a fair deal for me.
Once She was working a night shift I tried however. I was able to have Porn played on our big screen tv,my laptop,on our portable dvd and on my phone’s screen. And had 3 porn mags randomly opened and put on the table. As a spice I turned on porn on our bedroom tv too. I really remember that night and I felt like I am able to make my self sex addiction really pervy. I had 6 independent sources of Porn before me and one knowing is there.
One of my best edges and as a true edger I did not cum but have a really shrunk limp sore cock next day.
I love the feeling of being a perv by the getting a semi hard on in my today’s who-know-how-long-it-is edgeing session. The true goal reached is that I can abuse my hairy penis to the memory I had reached this.
Re: Cumshootersolo’s Masterbation Log
Unread post by Cumshootersolo » Sat Aug 03, 2024 8:50 am
I remember when I was younger, how I would always look forward to sex with my girlfriends or even my wife. Of course I masturbated a lot back then as well, but it is not the same as it is today. I’m sure it is the result of the prevalence of online porn and ease of access. I feel like I am always looking forward to and fantasizing about the next time I can watch porn and stroke my cock.
There is this constant, all day and night feeling in my cock head, like a constant stimulation and it makes me want to touch my cock even more. Any chance I get, I will rub my cock head though my pants, shorts or what ever I’m wearing. I love the feeling it gives me when I do this and I love knowing how dirty it is.
Last night we were eating in a local restaurant and the hostess was maybe 18-19 and very pretty , thin with khaki shorts, that were not too tight overall, but were snug on her ass and cheeks and dug into the crack of her ass. I would have loved to watch her walk around in those shorts and slowly stroke my cock to her beautiful ass. I know she knew all the guys were looking at it and she likely knows that many of us were stroking our cocks thinking about that ass of hers.
I just look forward to masturbation so much and need to release my cum. The hostess with the sexy ass reminds me of the time my wife as laying on her stomach and I was giving her a back massage, and while I was rubbing her back I had my cock in between her ass cheeks and using her ass to masturbate with. I could feel her soft skin on my cock until I shot my load of cum on her back. I then rubbed my cum into her back like I often do in myself. I love masturbating so much!
Unread post by Wet Jane » Sat Sep 07, 2024 5:05 am
I would love to entice you with my bald pussy. I love that you like it so much. I have not seen pubic hair on my own pussy and over 15 years. I love the feeling of it, especially when I am wet and horny. I would love for you to stare at my crotch. Or better yet what if you saw me at the nude beach and you look down and saw that I shaved my pussy and had no hair where I should have it. It feels so good when I masturbate.
There have been a couple of men that have approached me while I’m sitting on my beach chair, naked. They just wanna have a glimpse of my pussy. I am so turned on at the nude beach that most of the time my pussy is wet and horny. There have been a couple of men that have asked if they could see my clit That’s hiding under my hood. So I spread it and show them. Their cock instantly gets hard and I love hard cock.
I want to put my pussy on your face, are you good at cunnilingus? I love it so much. Nothing better than seeing a man’s face laughing at my pussy. I also love that you edge, I am in Edger myself! I just don’t want those good feelings to stop.
So I met this woman around 18 years my senior. I was 33, she was 51 but looked great and was newly single. She was someone who had formerly worked at the same company, but we weren’t in the same office, but she had kinda teased me when I first started at the company when I was single with no immediate prospects. Anyway, we found each other a couple years later in the early days of the internet, after she had moved a few hours away to take care of an ailing parent (and then decided to stay permanently).
Anyway, we started talking and it led to phone sex and we began to talk every day. I made plans to go visit her, but was unable to get away for a few weeks. In the meantime, we had daily phone sex and she used to joke of how she had turned my into a chronic masturbator. I laughed and told her that ship had long sailed, which was of course 100 percent true.
So she was a free spirit former hippie chick and would say anything and everything to anyone. I thought it was funny and looked forward to seeing her. We had sex probably a dozen times over the first couple days I arrived, and then on Sunday, she insisted we go to church together. Now this was church but super open and more spiritual than religious. However, there were only about 25 people there when I arrived and most everyone was at least 40 years old, so no kids. I was the only visitor and she goes into this introduction of how I came up to visit her and make her feel like a woman and how she felt she had performed a great service by saving this young man from his chronic masturbation habit for at least a few days.
I felt my face turn red and became flushed. I simply was humiliated. While everyone laughed and was very nice to me, it somehow struck a chord that I didn’t realize I had. Never before had I had people looking at me like that just knowing…..
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