The Masturbator Pensées (Thoughts) is a collection of fragments written by chronic masturbators
Relapsing hard
I have always been honest enough to know that I could never absolutely quit Masturbating. But a few times, usually after a weekend long butt-naked Bate-a-Thon, I felt enough shame to resolve to tame it a little. This especially happened a year or so into my pussy free streak. I would delete my masturbation-addiction intensive Tumblr account, feeling guilty about my solosexuality and start thinking about going back to being a pussy hound. So, I would vow that if the urge struck, I could suffice on a quick stroke with a Playboy mag or even a stray Cosmo, like when I was a teenager. But the urge …. would … just … keep … building. The next thing you know, I am naked, been stroking for a couple of hours and, with shaking hands, making a new Tumblr account. Filling the blog with references to my chronic masturbation, my desire for lengthy hours-long nude bate sessions, or my unquenchable desire to masturbate naked for a fully-clothed woman. Then check in with Richard’s trusty standby, onania.org; read some posts about masturbation, maybe post myself to declare once again that I am a MASTURBATOR! Then on to shemales and naked twinks, and reposting old Masturbator memes I kept on file, and looking up former online Bator buddies and announcing I’m back, and naked chicks and naked chicks’ buttholes and phone sex lines that specialize in chronic masturbator teases and … ah, ah, ah … soooo gooooddd!!!! Relapse is like makeup sex for solosexuals. Now, I am living with Alison and the pussy free streak is ended. But it is a great situation. I am a nudist and she encourages it; we have good sex together, but she knows I much prefer masturbation, and she has no qualms about me doing so openly, especially since I am naked all the time anyway. We are getting older, and she seems happy to let me take matters into my own hands more and more. Sex is intermittment. When we do have sex, I ususally fantacize about outrageous masturbation scenarios and even then I have to pull out after making her cum and finish in the familiar grip of my slutty hand. I am a masturbator, I love being a masturbator, and I have not even attempted to hold back my masturbation frequency in several years. I love being a MASTURBATOR!
It sounds like we have a lot in common. I have sex with my wife every once in a while, when the mood strikes her. However, like you, I always end up jerking off in front of her to make myself cum. She knows how I am and does not care, she knows I’m not out banging younger women or anything like that. She knows I’m in my “office” watching porn and jerking off. I have also been getting into non-porn jerk off material. YouTube yoga videos, women try on hauls, see though try on, wet/dry try on and so forth. I have even started jerking off to college gymnastics and shit like that. I love to imagine what their pussy and asshole look like. Of course, I love a good bukkake bang, gaping asshole, men cuming on women, jerking off, and the occasional hot shemale taking a big cock up her ass while jerks off. The list goes on and my need to jerk off is strong, it just feels too good to stroke and edge for hours. Too good to stop, too good to want to stop. My taste in jerk off material may change, but the need to pump my seed will never die. I too love being a masturbator. I love knowing that all of you know that I need to jerk off every day of my life. I love knowing that my wife is upstairs right now while I’m here alone with my cock in my hand, pumping up and down, pleasuring myself. She doesn’t really say much, but sometimes she hints that I am a dirty pervert who jerks off alone. That only makes me want to jerk more and more. Enjoy your cock, for it is there for your pleasure.
Like you, the thought of quitting or limiting my masturbation has never crossed my mind and I can honestly say that I’ve never felt any shame or guilt over my masturbation habit. To me the desire to masturbate is just as natural as eating when you’re hungry or drinking something when you’re thirsty so why should I feel guilty about it?
I so understand the need to edge! Edging just takes masturbation to a whole new level. The longer you edge and the more times you take it to the edge and back, the more intense your orgasm. It’s just that simple! And yes, quickies have long since become a thing of the past. If I can’t dedicate at least 2 hours to masturbation, I don’t even bother starting! I usually start slipping into that goon state about an hour and a half into a session and that’s when I can really start edging. I become a mindless pump drone and I lose all track of time as I take myself to the edge and back over & over again, totally oblivious to anything else, and just wallowing in the ecstasy of self-love! Getting into that mental and physical state is my goal each and every day!
We too have a lot in common. The scenario that you describe between you and your wife is exactly the same as the one between me and my wife. Nowadays all we do is masturbate together since we both finally admitted to each other that we simply prefer masturbation over “real” sex. My sex drive is higher than hers so, like you, I too spend lots of time in my “office” masturbating to porn with her full knowledge and support. Like you so correctly pointed out, she knows where I am, she knows what I’m doing, and she knows I’m not out chasing pussy or cheating on her. She knows that I am perfectly content sitting here for hours with my cock in my hand so she doesn’t have to be concerned about anything like that. The only difference I see is that my wife is very open and matter-of-fact about it and often comments on, and constantly reminds me of, the fact that I am such a masturbator, which I of course simply love!
It’s so freeing living the life of a confirmed masturbator when your significant other has full knowledge of it and supports it. There’s no sneaking around or hiding it or waiting for her to go shopping so you can watch porn and masturbate some. It’s simply understood that that is what you’ll be doing most of the time and it’s okay. And as you said, knowing that she knows exactly what I’m doing all day is a huge turn on, at least for me!
I love masturbating in front of my wife while I watch her masturbate, and she loves masturbating in front of me. It turns us both on! We talk dirty and nasty to each other about how much we both love masturbating and she’ll ask me if I’ve been watching porn and stroking all day and tell me how helpless I am when it comes to that. There’s nothing better than stroking myself to an incredible orgasm after edging for hours all day while my wife calls me a perverted masturbator and encourages me to shoot my load! For me it’s the best!
Well, My wife isn’t as vocal as yours. Usually she just makes a comment here or there about my masturbation habits. She will often smirk and ask me what I was doing all night down here and says, ” You wouldn’t be jerking off to porn would you”? I will usually tell her, “Of course, it’s what I do. I’d rather be addicted to jerking off to porn that addicted to crack”. She does say it in a teasing way, nothing demeaning, but not very often. Then, when we masturbate together, she is usually not to vocal because she is usually focused on her pussy and what ever porn is on, but when she cums, she cums hard as fuck and I can tell how much she loves that feeling. I’m usually edging the whole time while she cums several. times. The best part is when she sits on my face and masturbates while I lick her pussy and asshole! I fucking love to jerk off with her ass in my face and her wet pussy rubbing my chin. That shit makes me rock hard. I usually don’t last long like that!
It’s a turn on knowing that you and other men are out there with their cocks in their hands, alone, watching porn for hours. Addicted to that feeling of just about to cum and then stopping while riding the edge, letting that feeling take over that if you even blink wrong you could cum. It very hot watching cum shoot from a cock, I know the feeling and I love knowing that soon, that will be me when I finally can’t hold it back
Keep jerking!
If I happen to be watching porn and masturbating when my wife walks in my “office”, and I usually am, the first thing she says is “Hey, masturbator”, and then she tells me whatever it was she came in to tell me. She’ll look at the porn on the screen and look at me sitting there naked with my red, swollen, lubed-up cock in my hand and shake her head with that “You pathetic man” look on her face. Of course I love that! When we masturbate together she will say “You’re such a masturbator!” and “All you do is play with your dick all day!” and other things to that effect. Of course she’s laying next to me masturbating too, vibrator on her clit, fucking her pussy with a dildo and having orgasm after orgasm, but she’s not a pathetic masturbator, only I am! What a double standard…lol! I’ve told her that the difference between us is that she masturbates to have orgasms but I masturbate because I simply love the act of masturbating in and of itself and an orgasm is not required.
My wife and I are obviously very open and matter-of-fact about our masturbation. It’s simply understood that I’m going to spend most of the day masturbating and that we’re going to masturbate together at some point most every day.
Here’s a normal day for us:
I wake up early, 5am +/- an hour, and within half an hour I’m happily masturbating! I masturbate off & on all morning long, going to the edge and back numerous times. Somewhere around noonish, I’ll take a break to eat and I’ll stick my head in my wife’s room and ask “2 o’clock?” (or whatever time), which means we’ll meet in the bedroom at 2 o’clock and masturbate together. She’ll nod and say “Okay” or “Sure!” or “See you then”. I’ll tell her that until then I’ll be “practicing”, i.e. masturbating. She always goes to the bedroom a little early to get things set up and get out whatever toys she wants to use and I usually wait and give her time to do that and to get started on her own. As I’m walking down the hallway to the bedroom, I can hear her vibrator humming and her thrusting dildo whirring away, fucking her wet pussy. When I walk through the door I am greeted by the sight of my wife splayed out on the bed, happily fucking herself, and she’s probably already had an orgasm or two. Most of the time I just lay down next to her and start masturbating as I watch her fuck herself. I’ll squeeze and suck on her tits and pinch her nipples (we call that “helping”). My wife is very orgasmic and she cums quite often and over and over again. It really is an amazing sight to behold! She cums as many times as she wants, whatever it takes to satisfy her, and then she crawls between my legs and “helps” me by licking my balls and ass as I jack off to orgasm. Of course we’re talking dirty to each other this whole time and encouraging each other in our mutual masturbation.
Sometimes we pretend she’s working at a peep show at an adult bookstore and I’ll pull a chair up at the foot of the bed and sit there masturbating while watching her fuck herself. The scenario is that she’s recently retired and does this for a little extra money and also because she just loves to masturbate so why not make a buck or two doing something you enjoy! I’ll make comments like there’s a long line of guys outside just waiting for their turn to jerk off to her and how she’s everybody’s favorite because she’s really into it unlike all the younger girls who are just going through the motions. I’ll ask her if she really has orgasms with every customer or if she’s faking it and she assures me that she always has real orgasms with everyone! Call it all silly but it turns us both on and we enjoy it!
I love Cumshootersolo’s description of his wife riding his face while he jerks off! That’s good stuff! I enjoy straddling my wife’s face and having her lick my balls and ass while I masturbate as I look down and watch her fucking her pussy. I’ll comment on her having a dick in her pussy and one in her face, how she needs more than one cock to get off on, stuff like that. She’ll have a few orgasms and when I finally shoot my load on her tits or face, she has a huge orgasm. For me, it really is all about her orgasms and her being satisfied. I’m not worried about me because I know that I’m gonna eventually get off.
We are very fortunate to have wives who understand and accept the fact that we are, first and foremost, masturbators! Sexually speaking, I am happier and more content than I’ve ever been! I get to watch porn and masturbate all day with my wife’s full knowledge and support and I get to masturbate while watching her masturbate and she’ll “help” me in anyway I desire. The main thing is I get to masturbate! It’s what I want to do, my wife knows it’s what I want to do, and she’s good with it, even encourages it. I’m living the masturbators dream…lol!
Being with a partner who understands, approves of, and encourages your masturbation addiction is the absolute best, IMHO. I’m just guessing here, but I think the majority of us chronic masturbators want someone to know just how pathetic and helpless we are against our addiction, that we have no control over it and we just can’t help ourselves. It’s compulsive. We simply must masturbate! Shamelessly putting our addiction on full display to someone is a deep-seated desire for many of us. Being able to go just as deep into it, getting just as lost in it, and getting just as “gooned out” and perverted as we do when we’re alone, but doing it in front of someone else, totally baring your gooner soul, is what we want and crave. We want there to be absolutely no doubt about just how far gone we are and just how hopelessly addicted we are. It is who we are and we’re never going to change!
The only thing I would change with my wife and I would be for us masturbate for hours together, like you and your ex did. When we masturbate together it usually lasts about 30 minutes, until my wife has had all the orgasms she wants. She’s very orgasmic so it’s always in the double-digits. I love watching her and it’s always a blast, I just wish it lasted longer.
I too wish my wife would masturbate with me more and longer. Unfortunately, for her she can’t edge because if the takes too long to cum she will not be able to cum. For me it is 100% the opposite. The longer I edge the more intense the tip of my cock feels, the harder my erection and the more swollen my cock and cock head become. I love to look at my cock and feel it in my hand after edging for hours. It makes me want to keep going and go deeper into that goon state.
I also would love it if my wife forced me to masturbate for her, and even some of her hot friends. A long time ago, I sent her a picture of me holding my hard cock after edging for a couple of hours and dripping precum. She loved it so much she asked me if she could show the picture to her best friend. Of course I agreed, the idea of her showing her best friend my my dripping cock while I was holding it in my hand only made me want to masturbate more. If everyone in the world would goon more, I believe people would be happier overall. I say, goon your fucking brains out to debaucherous porn more every day, if for your genitals and let then rule you!
I have talked to my wife about denying her orgasms and edging for hours the way I do, but she cums so easily and can cum so many times that she says she doesn’t see the point in it and I can see her point. I’ve told her that since I can’t cum over & over again that edging for hours and going to the PONR and back, over & over again, is the closest I can get to having multiple orgasms like she does. She says she understands but I don’t think she really does, not in the way another gooner would.
Like you, the longer I goon, the longer I want to goon. Eventually the desire to simply continue masturbating outweighs the urge to cum and I get totally lost in hours of self-pleasure. To me there is no better feeling in the world than getting completely gooned out and getting totally immersed in it and I strive to get that way every single day!
My wife doesn’t “force” me to masturbate, in the sense that you mean it, but quite often she will just tell me to go masturbate to get me to stop pestering her. Of course I happily oblige her and goon my brains out!
That’s so hot that your wife showed her friend the picture of you holding your swollen cock! Hopefully when her friend saw it she immediately understood that you are a masturbator! Maybe your wife even told her so!
I believe, at least from the male perspective that edging/gooning is the next best thing to having multiple orgasms. To be honest, if I had to make a choice between having the ability to have multiple orgasms, or the ability to goon/edge I would have to take edging and gooning because to the feeling is so intense and it can last for minutes at a time when it feels like I’m going to cum. It the equivalent to a long orgasm. At least this is how it is for me when I’m edging and gooning. Eventually I will get to a point, as I always do where I can’t hold it back. That feeling of cuming after a long edge/goon session is intesne, like electricity is entering my body through the tip of my cock and it radiates through my entire body. I fucking love gooning so much! I wish I could be a professional gooner!
Married masturbators
woke up had the rare need to thrust in a vagina. i started to stroke over my PJs o my wife would see and get the hint. she got up and said i want some tea first. it gave me some time to pop some Viagra to get good and hard. next thing i heard she was watching TV inside. I sat next to her for a few minutes then i started getting hard so i got up and came into my masturbation room. iim licking my precum now and settling in for a intense stroking session. Oh well. this is the true life of a married masturbator.
So so so so sexy porn You just shared with us! Masturbating pervertedly in a partnerd relationship is the best and we love it more than anything else in the world! The best sex for a pervy depraved Masturbator like myself!
My GF justvisited me last weekend. She was in the middle of Her period. During the weekend She posed for me naked and have Her tits kissed and sucked and foundled and grabbed Her ass. Pussy was only to watch. The only usual clothing She was wearing was a pair of sexy pink knickers and a white pantie. I had the best weekend to be allowed to freely play with my freshly shaved cock anytime. The best long time marriage sex for a Masturbator you can crave. We both watched porn while the other was in the shower. By pleasuring my cock while semi hot water falling upon it gently I just gave Her more time to watch Porn alone. :)
The best sex for a Masturbator with a partner. She encourages me to Masturbate every day.
I could not agree with you more! IMHO, for a confirmed, dedicated, chronic masturbator, there can be no better relationship to be in than one where your masturbation addiction is understood, accepted and encouraged. Being able to put your porn and masturbation addiction on full display, in all its perverted glory, with a partner who supports and encourages it is the ultimate, at least for this masturbator! Just knowing that I can masturbate as much as I want, whenever I want, in whatever perverted fashion I want, with my wife’s full knowledge and support, is such a turn-on to me! It really is a very vulnerable position to be in, exposing your true self openly and unashamedly to someone else, and that is part of the attraction to it, at least for me. I love telling my wife “Look at me! I’m a masturbator!” or “I masturbate all the time!” or “I’m masturbating again!” She’ll say something like “I know dear. You just can’t help yourself. Keep stroking your cock”. It’s heaven! I love knowing that my wife knows just what a helpless, hopeless, chronic masturbator I am and that she’s okay with it. It turns me on so much and she has confessed that, much to her surprise, she’s found that it turns her on too! What could possibly be better?
I love the “freshly shaved cock” line because I shave, if not every day, then at least every other day. I love that smooth look and feel! It’s the best look for a chronic masturbator!