Give In
by sheepisheyes » Tue Aug 22, 2023 11:58 am
I have given in to the fact that I am and always will be a chronic masturbator.
Early on when I started to be attracted to girls, I could not help but play
with myself. This started a vicious cycle where I felt ashamed and could not
socialize with a pretty girl, which in turn made me want to play with myself
and so on and so on. I’m guessing you all know the gig.
Things get even worse when the girls start to notice and think you are strange.
You start to realize that you do not have a chance with girls and your hand
becomes your best friend. The girls in my neighborhood were very pretty and
aggressive. I never stood a chance.
I felt the absolute most pathetic and hence horny when I knew they knew I was
a wanker. To this end I would stand on a chair and wank in front of the window
when I saw the neighborhood girls outside. Finally they looked up and started
mimicking me with a jerking motion and humping their hands. I was cumming every
where. Once I cum I get really shy and go off and hide away.
This little game was fine but I did not think it out very well. Coming home on
the bus the next day, I had to walk behind the two girls. I am not intimidating
at all and easy prey for two gorgeous girls. I heard them giggling and looking over
their shoulders at me. All I wanted to do was get home and play with myself. I couldn’t
believe how incredibly pathetic I was feeling. Next thing I know they both stopped
and turned around to block me.
“Hey jerk-off boy, have fun yesterday playing with yourself?” I turned beet red and
lowered my head and kept walking. “What’s the matter? Can’t handle facing us? You
seemed to not mind hiding up in your bedroom jerking off”. I could feel myself
hard in my pants. They ran up to me and started walking on either side of me.
Teasing me about being a jerk-off and laughing at me. “What do you want? I’m sorry.” I whined.
They grabbed my arms and started pushing my towards one of their houses.
“Come with us and you can show us how sorry you are”.
I didn’t care. All I wanted to do was pull down my pants and jerk-off. “We’re
gonna tell everyone what pervert you are!” We got behind her house. Without
saying a word I pulled down my pants and started pulling on my penis. They
both put their hands to their mouths and said “Oh my GOD” then the laughter
started. “We didn’t think you would do it but without us even asking? Holy
shit” I spit in my hand and sat down on the ground with my legs spread stroking
furiously in front of the two girls and the pointed at me and laughed.
I knew that from this point on I was doomed. Everyone was going to find out.
Thankfully this was before cell phones but that really didn’t matter.
I don’t know if they ever saw a boy cum before or not, but they sure did that
day. I only lasted a few minutes before I was spraying cum across my chest and
even my face. I was so turned on and my balls were full. “Eww look at him, I
can’t believe you just did that in front of us!”. They both ran into the house
leaving me with my pants down and cum all over myself. I pulled up my pants
and ran back home only to starting jerking off again.
Soon every girl in town was giggling at me and making jerk-off gestures. I had
to hang my head in shame walking the halls at school. Everyone knew and it
was humiliating. I would sneak into the auditorium and play with myself
a couple times a day just to relieve the urge of feeling so pathetic. I
had no control anymore and didn’t care that everyone know.
I’m in the auditorium playing with myself when Mrs. Beattie walks in. She is
a MILF extraordinaire. She has great breasts and always shows cleavage. Her
lipstick and makeup is over board. I have many times played with myself
thinking about her. Given my situation I figured she must know too so I didn’t
bother to hide what I was doing. She rounded the corner and gasped when she
saw me. “Young man! are you playing with yourself?” I just shrugged and
stroked faster. She got closer and looked down on me in my seat. “Oh my I’ve
heard about you. I guess it is all true then. Look at you! You’re not even
bothering to stop”. She stood there shaking her head watching me. I couldn’t
stop if I wanted to and I didn’t want to. In a few more seconds I started
shooting ropes of cum again. It’s amazing how much more I cum when I am in
total humiliation.
She didn’t even flinch as she watched me debase myself and unload my cum.
“Well you are not going to have many girl friends in your life I can tell
you that. You may as well get used to playing with yourself. I have not
seen anything more pathetic than that. Everyone knows your secret. You need
to go back to class right now”. She stood there as I put my penis back in
my pants and sheepishly got up and left with stains all down my shirt.
I got a job at a restaurant as a dishwasher and all the waitresses made
fun of me. No one gave me any pity. I was a mockery. The guys avoided me
like the plague too. I was all alone with my palm. Each time I got
humiliated I found a place to jerk-off. The restaurant was an old house
and I would sneak up stairs to play with myself. I could hear the waitresses
saying “There he goes again” and laugh. When I came back down they would
shake their heads at me. Eventually a couple waitresses followed me upstairs
and caught me. I of course didn’t care and didn’t stop as they laughed
and teased me.
It started to seem like women enjoyed making me feel like a worthless
pathetic worm. I think it gave them a feeling of power to be able to make
me drop my pants and humiliate myself in front of them. I would go to bars
and of course not a single woman would talk to me and they all seemed to
know what a loser I was. I loved the humiliation and would go out to my
car and play with myself for all to see, which plenty did. They all knew
I was there and would walk by pointing and laughing. Sometimes they would
be having a cigarette and tell me to jerk-off, which I would to their
surprise.
So I give in and will humiliate myself anywhere for anyone. I am
a chronic masturbator and deserve all that comes with it. Sexless loser
that jerks-off 10 times a day. No woman will ever consider me a man and
I am resigned that I should never attempt to even pretend I am a man.