a masturbator said:
Just stopped by to catch up with the latest. I just finished 4 cock
vids and am sitting here with a pool of cum in my hand. My wife is in
the next room asleep. I woke up out of a sound sleep went to the
computer and check my email saw the vids and ejactulated. I believe my
addiction started when I was about 6 or 7. Seems my parent did not
take care of a problem when i was young and I and to stand in the
bathroom with my dad pull back my foreskin. A portion of which had
grown attached to my glans. So I did this every night almost for about
a year until it seperated. Sometimes my penis would itch and i would
rub it when I was in bed. Nothing special happened other that it felt
good. When I was about 8 I was in my room and was playing and desided
to play with my penis. I rubbed it, it felt good then it started to
get wet and twitch. That was great. This was a neat toy. Wow. I did
this about 3 more times in about 4 months. Then I was caught by my mom.
Oh Shit. The “Wait til you father get home” chant began. When my dad
got home he told me it was bad and never do it again then whipped my
ass. Sorry dad it felt to good to stop. My butt was sore for the next
couple of years. Then I found a friend at school that my mom like and
we slept over a discovered we like looking at each other penis’s and
playing with them. It was the start of a masturbatory adventure that
took me many place and risk my things. I dodged a lot of bullets I was
lucky I guess. At least a dozen or more time if I got caught I could
have cost me everything, marriage, job, home, parents, brother, and
childeren.
I am an addict to this now 65 and jacking and see no end in site. I
assume some day I will wake up and no longer have a desire for whatever
mental or physical reason but not on my own.
Thank for the chance to get this off my chest in a safe space.