I understand the “struggle” some have with it. And the need to come to peace vs being proud necesarily — Because at various times I have explored if it was good for me to masturbate like I do. How I do. As much as I do… Whether I could stay away and for how long (20 something days) even. But the truth is? All the questioning is fleeting. The experiences of self pleasure is much more resonant in my brain, much more feelings around it all are in the PROUD column regarding this lifestyle choice.
And that’s where you should make the choice for yourself. If its more beneficial to you than not to be a chronic masturbator, then be it. Own it. Then love for yourself, acceptance in who you are and somehow even deeper pleasure comes from the (supposed weakness you describe Jane) act of addicted masturbation. I call it that for myself, for the thrill. But really I think gooning level masturbation is a meditation. A spiritually transcendent channeling of some ancient evolutionary thing. The ritual is brought about by the moaning, the words and chanting, repeated phrases. Getting deeper into your pleasure while zoning out all other thoughts — Accepting your goon self…
Because of this acceptance I think I am proud. Proud, deep, compulsive bator.
Source: (30) Perhaps not proud but at least at peace with it – Onania Masturbator Forum