In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
I’ve always been submissive and a huge humiliation junky and the years spent watching that type of porn has left my brains wired to get more and more of that drug. The next big leap in my masturbation addiction happened around a year ago when my wife realised she could use my weakness to her advantage. When I masturbate I start to crave humiliation and become more submissive. She started to encourage me to masturbate as much as possible in order to transform me into a mindless and desperate addict with very low willpower to resist her.
Developing addiction
I’ve been a member of this forum for some time now, and all the time it’s been my intention to introduce myself, but I’ve been too busy masturbating. Finally I was able to hold myself together enough to write this introduction.
I’m in my early forties and I’ve been an enthusiastic masturbator more than twenty years. My masturbation addiction really started to grow with the broadband Internet connection I got in mid 90’s. Before that it was just occasional quick release to “remove the itch”, I’d say, but with Internet it really started to bring more content in my life and became more time consuming. I spent hours, days, nights to masturbate watching huge tits and female domination themed things. But I was able to control the addiction, and I think it’s mainly because there was always “natural limits”, as I call them, to stop the masturbation. As I was single and student, other people were not affected so I could do it to the exhaustion (a natural limit). Then I slept and rested couple of days and returned to my duties and pulled everything together, until the urge came back. Intense and unusual, but pretty harmless to everybody.
I’ve always been submissive and a huge humiliation junky and the years spent watching that type of porn has left my brains wired to get more and more of that drug. The next big leap in my masturbation addiction happened around a year ago when my wife realised she could use my weakness to her advantage. When I masturbate I start to crave humiliation and become more submissive. She started to encourage me to masturbate as much as possible in order to transform me into a mindless and desperate addict with very low willpower to resist her.
Last night I woke up at 2:30 AM because of raging hardon. I masturbated for two hours. Yesterday my wife had a friend over. I asked could I go to the basement to masturbate and she agreed for two hours. eventually it took three and in the morning I had already been masturbating for two hours, which makes in total around 7 hours in 24 hours. On weekdays I’ve started to sneak out from the work on afternoons to come to home to masturbate, so for the past month I’ve been masturbating 5-10 hours per day.
Why I’m in the deep end on this and why this really is becoming a problem is that I no more have “natural limits”: both me and my wife know that if and when this causes problems I enjoy even then because of the kicks that the humiliation gives. For example, now when I’m at home masturbating when I really should be in the office, she mocks me of my stupidity and how weak I am, which just makes my cock harder and causes me masturbate more for several hours.
Longest time I’ve been edging without orgasm was six weeks. That included a week in hotel. Yes, I booked a hotel for a week so that I could masturbate without distraction. On that week I masturbated more than 100 hours, more than 15 hours per day. I would do the same again as soon as my wife will let me go.
We have been planning that I masturbate for one entire night on weekly basis. However, so far we have considered this will affect too much her when I’ll be sleepy on the next day, so we have not yet started this practice.
Sometimes I take Viagra just to make sure I masturbate vigorously for five hours.
Sorry about the hasty finish, I really have to go to whack off.
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