In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
Of course, masturbation emasculates me. i was a compulsive jerk-off right from puberty, all the way to well into my twenties, due to necessity, because i didn’t have A Girlfriend. And even when i later had A few Girlfriends, i never felt quite right actually fucking A Woman and trying to act like A Real Man.
i thought things would be different after i got married. i actually ended up marrying An absolutely gorgeous, sexy Woman, several years my junior, and things started out really good. But within a few years, She realized what i was, and groomed me into being Her complete and total, 24/7 slave in every way. Within another few years, She declared that i was not fit to have any sort of sexual contact with Her ever again, nor with any other Woman, either, and that i would spend the rest of my life as the complete and total jerk-off i was always meant to be.
But what’s even more emasculating in its own way is that i’ve actually been put on a schedule of when i am required to jerk off. my Mistress-Wife says this is required because i need to be “tuned” to the right state of horniness. If i’m allowed to jerk off too much, i become apathetic, and don’t serve Her with the necessary enthusiasm. But if i’m too horny, i become so distracted that i don’t serve Her with the necessary focus. Therefore, i’m required to jerk off exactly twice a week, at the times She specifies, which often vary to fit into our schedules.
Usually, i look forward to my jerk-off time with great anticipation. But there are those times when i’m just not into it, and feel very emasculated knowing that i’m required to perform my dirty little act so that i’m “tuned” to the correct state of horniness. Nevertheless, well before my hand ever actually gets to my cock, i always have a raging hard-on, because i quickly realize how lucky i am to be the jerk-off that i am, who gets to be “tuned” to serve his wonderful Mistress-Wife with the proper enthusiasm and dedication; and who will never have any sort of sexual contact with another Woman ever again, for the rest of my life, but will get to spend the rest of my life being the real and true, complete and total jerk-off that i was always meant to be.
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good luck Brian, and you are not alone. None of us can stop.
I hope so … it’s so hard to accept that I’ll never have intimacy again… just masturbation. But God, it feels so good.. I crave it and can’t do without it. Thank so much for visiting with me.
Brian, it has emasculated but also liberated you. There is freedom in renouncing your manhood and becoming a total masturbator.
Masturbation has most certainly emasculated me. Mine has been chronic since I was about 9. Masturbation and eventual orgasm give me a feeling of total surrender. I don’t want to live without it . Thanks Brian you understand
Masturbation has most certainly emasculated me. Mine has been chronic since I was about 10. Masturbation and eventual orgasm give me a feeling of total surrender. I can’t live without it and its influenced my relationships and career.