No wife pussy, he only masturbates

Hi Richard,
I found by accident your website. Your site has inspired me immediately.
The way you describe it,
I’m not sure,
I am a chronic masturbator.
So I just write you my story. However, my English is very bad.
I am now 61 years old and married for the second time.
I am a chronic masturbator.
I was frustrated and desperate, when my wife told me, that she wants no more sex with me. This was 7 years ago.
That night I had a weak erection. With difficulty I could introduce my willie into her vagina. But then was my willie quickly limp. So I could not even ejaculate. My wife said then, it’s over. She wanted not have intercourse with me. I told my wife, I take the blue pill. But, She said no, I do not want more intercourse with you. 
Well, for many years was the marital sexual intercourse very rare and very short.
I had big problems with erection. If I had an erection, then held this only a short time. Then I had a lot of trouble, with my semi-rigid willie, yet to ejaculate.
My wife never told me directly. But her remarks were unambiguous. On certain occasions, when we were in the sauna, then my wife said to me, have you seen the guy, he is very well equipped. Once we went to the relaxation room from the sauna. Inside was a man who was already about 60 year old. He had a violent erection. My wife just went to the relaxation room and lay down on the couch next to the man. The man greeted my wife friendly and my wife said, I think you have a little problem, oh no more a big problem, while she laughed.
In the early years we had sex almost every day. If we were exhausted after having sex next to each other, they wanted to know how the sex with my first wife had been and what preferences they have. At first I was only a few short answers, because I did not want to talk about it. But my wife drilled on and on, until I finally gave in and told her about having sexual intercourse with my first wife and their preferences.
My wife wanted to know more and more accurate and I should tell you every detail. My wife told me, what colleagues she had sexual intercourse and she had a affair with her ex-boss. All colleagues were married. Her ex-boss was married and he was about 20 years older than her. By a colleague, she said that his penis was pretty small and she felt nothing. My wife also told by her ex-boyfriend. That was exactly her type it, black hair, a mustache and very well stocked. From our common boss told she, that they often meet in the nude bath and that he does put some cream my wife with sun milk. She then lies on her stomach and he creamed her back and legs. Well, of course, also her butt and he slipped, accidentally, with his hand in the cleft between her buttocks and a little deeper. My wife told me, what she was doing, when a man she forces to have intercourse, but she do not want this. Then she lies motionless and waited until he was finished. In most cases, it worked, but there was also some where it did not work. As with the antenna builders. He has also laid the cable in her apartment. Well, he was a nice older guy, but even a old guy. He has she forces, she did not want to, but he continued, until they were both naked. Then he lay down on her and penetrated her. She told me, she lay motionless and waited that he is finished. But, this did not disturb the antenna manufacturer. When he was the first time, that he had his semen squirted into her vagina, as remained he lie on her. She got very little air because its thicker beer belly presses on her stomach. The old guy used she yet three times. From the second time made my wife with, because the willie of the old guy has her vagina completely filled, a enorm filling.
After a few years of sexual intercourse was less and less. From almost daily to weekly to monthly. I have masturbated frequently. And I thought of the stories from my wife. At their intercourse with their colleagues and to the intercourse with the antenna builders. During this time I masturbated every day, sometimes twice a day. I got end of 40 problems with my erection. I first noticed it while masturbating. I no longer had an immediate erection. Usually only just before ejaculating, and then only for a short time.
A couple of times I had sex with my wife, which, however, was getting worse. Until it no longer worked.
I still masturbate, even if only once a week. In addition, I tried my ability to improve erection with a vacuum pump. But it was not successful. Then I used a certain dildo for self massage my prostate. Without success.
Then I tried Estim. I made a ring for the base and one for behind my glans. Since then I’ve learned again know a great feeling. This tingle sometimes more, sometimes less. It’s much better than to masturbate with the hand and I can also use longer time the device.
I then lean back and dream of the days with my first wife. This was a small, slender woman with a small bust and she was full of embers. We had intercourse every day and there was almost no matter where and how. The initiative often went out of her, and she wanted more than three times intercourse in one night. At any time and at any place she wanted sexual intercourse.
Unfortunately, this can not turn back time. And remains for me only electrical stimulation.
best regards B__