I am able to reconstruct it very clearly: The first time was around my 4th birthday during a noon time nap. Felt first strange feeling down there, got the first (upon my memory) stiffy between my fingers and started to move the foreskin up and down as if ever known before. First dry orgsasm immediately. Very early, I know, but the truth.Caught:
My mother slept in the other bed in my small room sometimes. Mysteriously there were moments that she lay alrready there in the dark silence, and I had not yet done my little all evening job. My age 6 or 7. She heard the silent, typical sequence of noises repeatedly , and asked me some day. Her loud voice out of the silence is still ringing in my ears today. I had this situation sharing the room with her many times repeatedly until my age of about 16. Even sharing a double bed.
Masturbation circle:
With neighbour boys until age of 10. So I got informed very early that I was not the only one in the world. But that it was something called “self satisfaction” I did not learn before 12.
Outing:
Never. My deep interest in my own masturbation memories and the memories of other men woke up with the beginning of the internet in the 90ies. Nowadays I love this subject and love also to read about the present masturbation addiction of all the comrades here. I love some age play. I am the boy again … But I tell this only here.
First addiction: Well, when I repeated the little act during the noon time nap the following day and realized that it worked again I knew I was hooked. One to two times every day. But less would have been impossible. So an addiction I would define.
Second and serious addiction: In my puberty at 13/14. Up to 8 times a day. The loneliness of the young masturbator with rings under his eyes. There are photos. The mixture of forbidden pleasure and pain. Pain in mind – and in penis sometimes at the end of the day.
Present addiction:
Due to my mature age this is less a question of my physical activity. But of my mind. It has become extreme the last months. Beyond everyday activities the theme masturbation has filled my mind with about 90% now. It is possible as I am retired and free now.
Gave up fucking: With my wife the last years with her without discussion. I lost my interest as well. Nowadays a self-convinced masturbator who loves to give myself fuel for my delicious self produced orgasms. Fuel from various sources. A new one is onania. So happy here.
Feel free to write me if you want to read more about my memories. I love to write about them. I remember the things very exactly. The deal would be your memories of course.