The Pensées (Thoughts) is a collection of fragments written by chronic masturbators
I’ve been repeating the visualization of what my first time might be like in a group masturbation event. Hesitant at first but eventually comfortable enough to join others watching porn, lubing my penis up, and feeling the immediate waves of pleasure of my hand pussy stroking my penis. I see mine begin to stand tall and proud. I noticed a guy across from me with his thick meaty penis engorged but laying on his thigh pulsing and twitching. I imagine I get to hold and stroke his meat while we get to talking about our favorite porn amongst the rest of the masturbators. Talking, stroking, feeling the comfort and horniness growing and growing.
I was sitting at the computer and not even watching porn, but doing some programming, and had headphones on so I didn’t hear [my mother] coming. My penis was out and my left hand was stroking it. Kind of half-unconscious wanking … She looked at the screen and when she found nothing worrying there she walkd out and later she mentioned to me it was “ok to play with your genitals in privacy”. How was your experience?
I was with pants fully down stroking, suddenly the door behind me opened and grabdpa picked in, probably wanted to ask something.. I looked back startled, but he just nodded and left closing the door. He didn’t say anything, but I kinda heard him later asking someone else from the family to not disturb me. he surely noticed the naked girls I had on the screen (not porn, just nudes in that particular case) I’ve never been caught by mom or any other female from the family or not.. Still, much later on when I was married there was some period when we were living together with her mom.. and I must admit I did have thoughts about my mom-in-law catching me more than once
I don’t think my mom ever caught me in the act as a teen, but she definitely caught me with evidence, like the porno my dad had on VHS that was hidden in his sock drawer, I had filched it and stuck it under my mattress to watch when I could get a chance. I remember her telling me how masturbation was a sin (super helpful!) Surprisingly I didn’t wind up with a shame kink, though!
Strange as it may sound, I’m currently fantasizing about the experience I actually had quite many times, but didn’t have the opportunity to relive in recent years.. So, it’s about masturbating with women’s panties and bras wrapped around my cock, their laced cloth rubbing on my shaft and glans.. feeling my penis warm and comfortable being thrusted in that ‘vagina’ made of women’s clothes, like as if they still keep some warmth of boobs and pussies they’ve been worn on.. Probably some would consider these things to be non-consent, but.. as a long-term bator I just can’t resist the pleasure of humbly humiliatingly stroking my needy penis witha woman’s panties and milking my seed out onto them
I confess that I’m going on a porn diet for the very first time in my life, after about three decades… close to four if you count written erotica. I realized that practically all my masturbation has been done to porn, and I’m just curious to see what effects a reset might have, if any. Obviously I don’t count reading this forum as porn, although I’m sure I should, but for a change I’m not masturbating to it. Haven’t looked up any pictures either, aside from checking earlier this week to see if there are any half-naked pictures of Cybill Shepherd out there (spoiler alert: there are), but I didn’t masturbate to those either
I have a bathrobe that might as well be called my masturbation outfit; I wear it early morning or late at night when she’s asleep and I’m stroking but I might need to cover up quickly. It’s more foolproof than stuffing an unruly hardon back through a fly and wrestling with unpredictable zippers, and it usually has a freshly filled cumrag in the pocket waiting for an opportune time to be disposed
I didn’t fuck as a teen (took me a while to get over the Catholic guilt) but I had a girlfriend in high school and we did everything but in the back seat of my parents’ car. I grew up in a rural area so there were no shortage of dark back country roads that we could pull over on to fool around. We moved from making out and heavy petting to dry humping to eventually getting completely naked, humping and touching each other but without penetration. She had hangups about giving or receiving oral, but I made her cum many times with my fingers or grinding my cock on her pussy. I usually finished by jerking myself off on her tits or belly. To this day I still love humping and grinding!
One morning this week I was getting ready for work like usual. I like to take my time getting ready. Either listen to NPR for a bit or do some light yoga. I decided to sit on the couch for a bit, which is my normal masturbation area when I have time. I started feeling my cock bulge in my underwear a bit, although I wasn’t touching myself or fantasizing. The energy rushed through my body and it felt good and I stayed semi hard for a while. I tend to leak a lot of precum so I pushed open my underwear so I wouldn’t soak them. Thinking maybe it will go down naturally. I thought, “Does this count as masturbation?” I was still feeling good, and I started getting harder. Eventually I was fully erect, a bead of precum had formed on the tip, and I could feel it throbbing. The horny energy was rushing through my whole body and it felt great. Eventually it did go down but then I was feeling like if I didn’t ejaculate now I would feel horny all day at work and soak my underwear. So I went ahead and came into some kleenex. I’d like to be able to control my sexual energy more so I don’t lose it and it doesn’t drive me crazy. Has anyone been able to get really turned on and then back off without feeling frustrated?
My orgasms since then have been snuck in the kitchen or bathroom while my partner works from home. They’re a lot more mechanical than usual – probably the result of decades of visual fuel pushing me to the edge so all it takes is slow strokes or light fondling – and I’m also focusing on the circumstances in which I’m masturbating to get me there. It’s fun though, looking at myself hastily jerking my cock just around the corner from my partner and reflecting on what a beatoff I am. That and some lightspeed pumping get me there a lot sooner than a long porn sesh. Historically I’ve tried to avoid the death grip, but with sex down to a few times a year, I think it’s safe to do this for a month or two. Just another masturbation game, really
i”ve done a few resets from both porn and masturbation. I will take a week off occasionallh as “maintenance” and may do that 2-3 weeks in a row with only one session in between. the longest I’ve gone was about 60 days. Depending on where you’re at, that may or not be necessary to enjoy the benefits. A week sebatical gives me more than enough reset. it’s so amazing as the simplest porn is intoxicating and the natural sexual build up is so good. whatever you do, you should see some benefit
Mixed naked Sauna is a big thing here and i love going there and hanging out and watching all the naked women…. It’s a massive turn on and i always end up having a crafty stroke whenever possible, especially in the steam sauna where it’s difficult to see what the other people are doing. I’ve seen loads of women gooning in that sauna over the years ????
When I was growing up I remember certain single older men – widowed, divorced or never married. Some were nasty and bitter, but many were quite pleasant, happy and content. I always wondered why the difference, but now that I’m older, single and solosexually content, I’m pretty sure the happy ones were also enjoying their freedom to be frequent masturbators. Pussyfree inspiration for us all
Sexual humiliation is part of my core wiring; I’ve craved it since I can remember and long before I understood what exactly i was craving. One of my earliest memories is a “show us yours and we’ll show you ours” circle with maybe four or five of my older sister’s friends – they must have been over for a birthday party or something? They made me go first so I showed them my tiny hairless unit, honestly and naively expecting reciprocation, but they all laughed and refused – I think they maybe hadn’t expected I would do it. There I was with my pants down and a circle of pretty girls laughing at me, denying me even a look at pussy – and the deep-red faced embarrassment I felt was far outweighed, or really just transformed and enveloped by the deep thrill of humiliation, which I drank up, the most satisfying drink ever. It’s some fifty years later and I finally have a GF who mercilessly degrades my penis and spins detailed tales about laughing with her friends about how she dresses me in panties and bosses me around; it feels so good that I often cry real tears of relief. We’re complex beasts inside for sure ????
I’m a life long cock sucker, started when I was young, porn addict, and exhibitionist. I edge 2-3 hour a day minimum. I avoid sex with my gf, limiting myself to about once a month with her so I can focus on pumping. Edging to porn is seldom enough, I need to be exposed to other perverts. I hit up local cruising parks a lot. This afternoon I went to one and sat in my car pumping my cock and watching porn. Just shorts and a t shirt no underwear. I followed men into the bathroom a few times. Ended up sucking on 3 different cocks, and having two of them shot loads all over my face. Still have not released myself, not even a ruined orgasm in over a week. I want to go back to a different park tonight and walk around mostly naked pumping, hopefully I’ll run into some more perverts….
hit the JACKPOT yesterday, was doing a bit of perving on girls wearing next to nothing in this heat and jacking in the store parking lot, thought I was being somewhat discreet but this absolute 10 ended up coming to the car parkd next to me she had yoga pants and sportsbra combo going . Well she caught a peek of me pumping and I covered up and gave her a sly smile, well she suprised the fuck outta me when she turned back to me and lifted her top revealing the best set of tittys ive seen in years….needless to say she got to watch me shoot a gooey load all over myself as she laughed and said have a nice day and got in her car…hope to run into her again!!! and yes i went and did some shopping with a big wet cum stain on my shirt
My masturbation is beyond out of control…..i’ve already confessed i cant go a day without it and I do masturbate every day. I masturbate 4 to 5 times a day to the point of orgasm by the evening i cant get an erection because of how many times i’ve masturbated. A few members on here know about it and have been pushing me to masturbate even more…triggering me. I…really enjoy giving up the control and feeling myself become more consumed by masturbation and porn.