Post by sylvarrh » Wed Jul 27, 2016 5:17 pm
I want to suck my own dick. I’ve always wanted to. I know it would be so good if I ever could. I know just how I would kiss it and lick it, chew it and suck it into my mouth. It would feel wonderful. I could make such wonderful love to my penis – to myself. But I was never that flexible, even when I was young. Now I’m so old and stiff it is laughable to imagine trying it. I’ve really envied those friends of mine who were flexible enough to accomplish it. The first time I ever watched someone do it, I watched a band mate of mine suck himself off one night when we shared a motel room. Seeing him do it was so hot! Naked, he laid on his back on the bed and just folded himself into this pretzel with his legs in the air. It was amazing that his cock ended up right in front of his mouth. He bent his neck up, opened his lips, folded himself a bit more and fucked his dick straight into his mouth. He got all of it into his mouth and sucked it and sucked it. I was fucking aroused. It looked like an awesome pleasure and the sounds he made confirmed it. His balls floated over his face and he held them in one hand. I remember he scrubbed his hand over his exposed anus for extra stimulation too. He kind of bounced and wiggled so that his cock thrust a couple of inches in and out of his mouth so that he was fucking his face. I was so jealous that he could do it and do it for such long time. I sat on my bed across from him and I just had to masturbate while I watched. Eventually he groaned loudly and I knew he was cumming. I could see his adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed. I immediately had to cum, too. He must have filled his mouth with his sperm because some dribbled out of the corner of his mouth and ran down his chin. There was the sexiest, wet “plop” sound as he relaxed and let his dick pop out of his mouth after he came. He unfolded and stretched out on his bedspread and fondled his cock as he looked over and smiled at me after I had spurted my own cum on a motel towel on the floor between our beds. We lay on our beds for a while smoking and talking. He thought that maybe I could exercise and eventually be limber enough to suck myself like he could, but I never could. Over the years I have watched — and helped – other ‘limber’ friends of mine suck themselves. I’ve always found it arousing, exciting, and sexy. I roomed with that band mate for months and many nights witnessed him curled up in his folded position with his cock in his mouth. And I’ve always been envious.
That’s what led to my first times sucking dick. I was older and finally got up the nerve to confess to another friend who had introduced us to masturbating together about wanting to suck my own dick. I mused about being more “bi-curious” than simply stroking ourselves together. He admitted he was “curious” himself and it wasn’t long before he suggested that the next best thing to self-sucking was for us to suck each other. That way, he said, we could do all those things we wanted to do to on our own dicks by doing them on each other’s dicks. We would be 69-ing, he said, and he’d copy what I did with my mouth and do it on my dick at the same time I was doing it on him. It would almost be like self-sucking, he predicted. It took me about a minute to agree, even though I had had only one or two “homosexual” experiences before that. That afternoon we went from side-by-side masturbating together with our pants down to both of us lying naked on his couch, embracing each other. Somehow the idea of 69-ing got lost in our excitement and I found myself laying between his wide-spread thighs, staring at his hard cock sticking up in front of my face. For the first time in my life I kissed another man’s cock, holding it firmly in my hands. Then I just took the plunge and opened my mouth and sucked the head of his penis in. He thrust up and his dick went deep into my mouth. Then I was sucking and licking and chewing another guy’s penis and discovering with delight how much I liked it. That first time I did let him cum in my mouth, but let it all drool out between my lips and drip onto his wife’s couch cushions. True to his word, he switched places with me and did all those lovely things to my cock that I had just done to his. For weeks the idea of self-sucking didn’t occur to me as we both got better and better at fellatio … and other things. I’ve been a fan of cock-sucking ever since.
Eventually in my forties the idea of self-sucking came back into my mind. I didn’t have a J.O. bud at the time and I was just beginning to explore solo-sex seriously with the idea of expanding what I could experience with masturbating. I began to have more as my wife and I quit fucking as often. I had always liked solo-sex anyway. I had begun the rewarding process of training my nipples to be sensitive and receptive to masturbatory stimulation – based on a couple of online articles I had read about the pleasure you could get from playing with them. I began also to pay attention to all the erogenous zones on my body and learning what to do to stimulate them. I bought a dildo and some different butt plugs in order to play with my ass. I had so much fun learning how. But the idea of self-sucking still was my biggest desire. By now I had developed a beer gut and I knew that folding myself over and sucking my dick was never gonna happen no matter how limber I got. I tried, but could never get my dick more than about 6 inches from my mouth, dammit. I got the idea to use a piece of plastic hose, putting my cock in one end and sucking with my mouth on the other. It was mildly pleasant to be able to vacuum my cock over and over, but all the mouth action I needed and the licking and kissing and stuff were missing. My vacuum cleaner did a better job of simply sucking me.
Then I bought a Fleshlight. For a few months I was totally in love with this plastic pussy. I was fucking it at least once every day, learning how to use it well and how to control my orgasms with it. It really made my dick feel great! But after while I was back to a varied and full solo-sex masturbation life. I still wanted to self-suck! One afternoon I realized that the gap between my mouth and my cock wasn’t as wide as the length of the Fleshlight insert. Before you could say ‘masturbate’ I was naked and folding myself into a pretzel, with my Fleshlight insert in my hand. I was able to slide my stiff cock into the business end of the insert and get my mouth on the open end of the back of the insert. Oh man, it was really good! I had the pleasure of a pussy around my dick, and if I held and squeezed the insert just right I could suck a vacuum on my cock too and get the oral gratification I crave. It’s not the same or as good as a self-suck, and not as good as a bud giving me a blowjob, but masturbating that way does give me some bit of the same pleasure of private solo-sex self-sucking. It’s probably as close as I will ever get.
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