a masturbator is out of control:
I was off work yesterday and I’m off again today. I have no self control at all anymore. I tell myself I’m not going to masturbate, but, I do. I immediately started masturbating within one minute of my wife leaving yesterday and couldn’t make myself stop for over 6 hours. I lost most of the day again and nothing got done. Here I am again naked at the computer masturbating. I have no self control and I’m powerless against this addiction. I’m sure that I will masturbate in bed in the morning with or without my wife being present, unless I have to get up and get online and do it. She knows I do it online now, but, has never actually caught me by surprise. Sometimes I’ll tell her I’m going online to beat off and she leaves me alone to do my thing. I’m naked all the time now when I’m home and I have always slept naked. I’m completly impotent and can’t get hard for any kind of sex, but, when I wake up during the night and in the morning I’m always as hard as a rock. I like to play with myself when I’m hard like that. It never lasts long though soon I’m limp as a wet noodle. No matter what my wife does to me orally or manually no erection any more at all. Sometimes Viagra will work.
I just wanted to touch base with you before I get greasy and I’m down to onehanded typing.
Like the masturbator out of control I too have no self control and powerless against my addiction. Unlike him my wife and family know nothing about my addiction. Because I am home most of the time as is my wife I can’t go naked much but if I could I would, I do sleep in the nude. At my age, 80+, I seldom get a real hardon but I still love to play with my genitals as often as I can when not masturbating. If one is going to be addicted to something how much better is masturbation than alcohol or pot?