Re: Early Adopters
Post by EarlyBeginner » Tue Nov 28, 2023 11:56 am
Yes, I agree to this thesis. The very early beginner will become an addicted masturbator with higher probability.
I see myself as such a case for example. My very early masturbation set myself in some opposition to the world. Anyhow I knew from the very beginning that it is forbidden and I must act secretly. On the other side stood the pleasure at the end, a pleasure unknown before. My secret masturbation was my first little freedom, my first private world which was not under control of the adults with their strict moral. No nudity, private parts taboo! But just my private part down there gave me the highest pleasure now. This contradiction gave me my first dirty childish fantasies: The nudity, the private parts of people. My little play, hidden and enjoyable produced a high consciousness in my mind.
So from the very beginning I was some kind of self explorer, even self researcher. I did not have anybody to ask or even any answers, but I had the QUESTIONS already:
What is this which I must do again and again now? What is the purpose?
Why does my penis get stiff and hard sometimes?
Why did I have to move the fingers up and down then?
What is this sweet sensation and the delicious itch at the end?
Why does my penis become small again after?
Why are the dirty fantasies away after that moment immediately? Why do I ask myself then: Have you been crazy to have such silly thoughts just some seconds before? (Post Orgasm Clarity, also women report this.)
My very first time was spectacular with the immediate dry orgasm. It got burnt in my mind forever. Fortunately I had a good relationship to numbers and a good memory. Adult people told me later that I said: “I am 5 and become 6”. At the age of 6 I had the consciousness: I started the thing (which had no name the first years of course) when I was 4. I remembered this at age 6, then continously with 8, 10, 14, 20, and today. Burnt in my mind, all details. The first view of my aroused penis some days later, the motion of my fingers.
I have remained not only the masturbation addict in my mind and practice, but also the “researcher” until today. As for me masturbation is the authentic erotism of people, female and male. During masturbation happens what the body really needs for its pleasure and orgasm.