I’ve been meaning to write this somewhere and havent found a proper place to do so, maybe this is still the wrong place who knows, but let me know the right place if you do know.
Not to waste any time ill get right into it, I am a proud gay porn addict. It feels good to say those words. I am a 19 year old proud gay porn addict.
It all really started when the pandemic started. Prior to the pandemic I would occasionally jack off and watch some porn, but nothing too crazy just front of the page stuff on pornhub and occasionally some “wild” stuff by Bruno Dickemz. Ultimately the pandemic really forced me inside my home and my family was quite scared so we were closed off for a while in the early months. I found myself with so much time and not a lot to do. There really is so much anime you can watch and school did not take up much time, so I threw myself into pleasure. I started to focus more on my dick and jacking off more. Around this time I discovered the world of twitter and reddit porn. It was at this point my addiction had started to take root. I had found and dicovered so many amateur pornstats and just average people posing naked for a camera and my dick wanted it all. At this point I realized the gay porn and dicks made me hornier. Slowly over time I transitioned into fully watching gay porn and began to become obsessed with prostate orgasms, BBC, and raceplay. Specfifcally Muslim domination and Black New World order.
My addiction took a turn for the worse when my family purchased a new back massager. The renpho massaged off of amazon. My first instinct in my new horny filled brain was to put it on my dick, and that I did. The orgasms the machine gave me were beyond intense, so intense in fact that my eyes actually rolled to the back of my head, and I wasn’t even exaggerating. My legs would go numb and quiver, the tips of my toes would go numb while my legs shake with pleasure. My dick was spurting so much cum and my asshole would pulse so much. I had never cum as much as I did with the massager. I would use it everynight while watching and seeing videos of naked men fucking, and around his time I began to become addicted to cuckold porn. Something about cuckold porn made me so horny, I can’t explain it. I began to also get interested in chastity. Around this time my dick was very sensitive and I would cum very fast. I used to think it was because I was young but I think it’s because I’m a premature ejaculator and the thought that I’m going to disappoint every woman I’ll ever sleep with makes me so horny.
At first I wanted to have sex so bad, but now all I think about it jacking off and making myself feel more and more pleasure. I now vibrate my dick at higher settings and the orgasms have just been getting more and more intense. Just yesterday I had an orgasm and my legs were shaking well after my orgasm. I usually cum in my pants and my underwear just gets soaked with cum as I have intense orgasms. Sometimes I’ll have 3 or 4 in a night before finally going to sleep because the orgasms have gotten way too strong. Never in 100 years did I think I would be here addicted to gay porn and orgasms, but here I am.
To anyone reading this I want you to encourage my addiction and make it worse, I can share naked dick pics, videos anything. I want to be shamed, triggered, and encouraged. I want someone to make my addiction worse and make me more and more of a gooner.
(please let me know if this was the right place to post this, definitely let me know other places and please comment, I want to see what you all have to say.)
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