Onania Masturbator Forum: Pussy Penetration Anxiety Disorder (PPAD)

In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:


It feels like a cruel joke. When i began masturbating in high school, i wonder if i already had undiagnosed PPAD. i would have given anything to have Real Sex, at least in theory – i fantasized about many of the girls i knew, and felt tormented by my constant erections and wet dreams. Watching teen sex comedies on TV late at night added to my desire but also to my anxiety. Looking back now i can see how those movies helped foster a belief that only by losing one’s virginity could a boy be a Real Man, and that boys who jerked off were to be ridiculed and pitied as perverted losers. So i believe that my PMS – Pathetic Masturbator Syndrome – was a key cause of my PPAD. i worried that my penis would be of inadequate size to satisfy a girl, and i believed that the girls i liked were probably not virgins, so they would have bigger dicks and better sexual experiences to compare me to. On top of that, i had already experienced premature ejaculation from merely talking to and ogling a girl while having one of my uncontrolled puberty-driven erections. One of those times, it happened when a girl was being flirtatious with me and actually rubbed herself up against my crotch. She didn’t notice what i had done, thank goodness, but if that was all it took, i was deathly afraid that i would spurt the moment i saw a girl in her panties. Continue reading

Jay Mayo: when I discovered that I was Pathetic

when I discovered that I was Pathetic

by Jay Mayo

I would like to post this short story, if it’s okay, for your” when I discovered that I was Pathetic”, section of your site.  I am so hard just typing this, I am pathetic….
 
I’ve masturbated regularly for most of my life.  However, it was not until this past year that I determined that I was indeed pathetic.

My quest to fulfill my sexual desires as a result of being in a sexless marriage led me to the realization that I enjoyed to masturbate.  Being that I had masturbated my entire life, I guess that I already knew that, and now masturbation had replaced sexual contact with other beings, and became my primary and only sexual outlet.

I found with the help of the internet, site’s just like this one.   I’ve been from cover to cover on the Onania. org site.  I was viewing it, as a movie goer might.  I was detached, watching, listening, and reading about other’s that had this “addiction”.  Others that were unable to control their habits.  I thought them to be weak, they were pathetic.

Then one day, about a year ago, I realized, hey maybe I’m pathetic.  It’s not just them, it’s just not others, I was an addicted masturbator.  I was an edger, I was the daily stroker. I was calling in on masturbation hot lines, I was on chaterbate.  I love to masturbate, I love to edge my penis. At first it was humiliating, me an addicted masturbator, like those others.  Oh but I found the humiliation, aroused me, made my penis go very hard.  I became very ripe.

It’s better now, knowing what I am.  Accepting my fate.  I am pathetic masturbator. 

— Jay Mayo

Jay Mayo: my life as a masturbator, the early years

my life as a masturbator, the early years (source)

by Jay Mayo 

My first encounter with masturbate was at age eight. I remember being in the bathroom of my parents home. I must have had a woody, at the same time as having to pee. Peeing was hard to do with a hard little wiener, could be messy.

I must have stroked my little wiener in a manner that prompted another, then another, right hand, left hand, slapped against my belly. It burned warm, and something triggered the desire for more stimulation of my pencil size hairless wiener. I had no idea, only that it felt really, really good. The more I slapped, the better it feels, so I continued to slap, until I dry climaxed, little wiener pumping and spazing. Wow, that was great, didn’t really know what it was, just wanted to do it again. I do remember dry climaxing being different from ejaculations of semen, in a good way, like a warm wind through a small tube, it was very nice. I think I was slapping my wiener daily for weeks, that’s until I got caught.   Continue reading

Take THE NO PUSSY PLEDGE

Face it, Masturbator: you aren’t getting any pussy. And your last attempt was a humiliating failure and only annoyed the pussy. So get past grieving for your lost manhood, and accept your life as a pussy-less Pathetic Male Masturbator. Join your fellow chronics and take the No Pussy Pledge! Just copy and paste the text below into a new reply, and edit or add your own remarks.

THE NO PUSSY PLEDGE

I, <your name>, openly acknowledge that Pussy is a Privilege, deserved only by Real Men and not by Pathetic Male Masturbators like me. I understand that pussies need to be fucked long hard and deep by large stiff cocks, not noodled and dribbled on by wimpy wanker weiners. I admit that I have voided all male claims to pussy by my constant compulsive masturbation. Therefore I pledge to cease all attempts at pussy fucking, now and for evermore. I surrender all male pussy privilege to alpha male breeders and accept my permanent role of pussy-less beta male masturbator. I promise never to annoy another pussy with my pathetic attempts at copulation, and even if a kind female offers me a pity-fuck I will respectfully decline and masturbate in front of her. In exchange for giving up pussy, I retain the right of unlimited access to and personal use of pussy pictures, plastic pussies, and most importantly Hand Pussy.

Onania Masturbator Forum – Rejoin the pathetic bunch…a sense of belonging…

by Guest.Masturbator » Tue Jun 03, 2014 8:51 am

Hi all, last night I had the most pathetic sex ever with my wife since we married 3 years ago. It was Valentine’s day and I decided to make it up for my young lovely wife. Sad thing (and probably foreseeable) was I had been binge masturbating for over a week (at least three times a day locking myself jerking to porn etc, either ejaculate or edge). Only two minute into pumping wife’s hole (which was extra tight since our last proper sex nearly two weeks ago), I went limp right away……My wife was rather surprised as all our previous sex last for a good half an hour at least. I said it was due to work stress, however, I know what caused this…

Now wife’s away again shopping, and like all other weekends I’m locking myself in the bedroom going through tons of porn and jacking brainlessly… I’m struggling since I don’t want to disappoint my wife any more, but I can’t stop my addiction either….

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A masturbator wrote: Giving Up Trying to Quit

In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:


 

It’s been a while for me, but today I remembered when I stopped trying to quit being a compulsive masturbator. It was so relieving admiting that I am a complete addict, and that I will likely never change. Before that I had always felt a little guilty – I was still binge masturbating (close to what I do now; around 6 hours on weekdays, 10 – 12 on weekends) – but I tried to maintain somewhat of a social life, and would often try to quit, usually just lasting a few days.

The moment of accepting who I am came after my last attempt at quitting. I hadn’t edged that whole work week (Monday through Friday), but as I came home on Friday I passed an adult video store. While I didn’t go in, just thinking about all the wonderful porn and perverts in there got me so hard, I went home and immediately started edging, furiously watching porn on the internet. I edged through the whole weekend, cancelling plans to see friends, totally captive to the BBWs and gangbangs I was watching online. At that moment I accepted who I was. There have only been a handful of days I haven’t edged at least 2 hours since then – and that was about 7 years ago.

Now I am a hermit masturbator, who doesn’t need to worry about my “friends” bothering me because they stopped calling a long time ago. I know I will never have a “normal” family life, or social life, but this is who I am. I am ashamed at what I have turned in to, but that just fuels me. All I want now is more humiliation porn, as I sit in my masturbation cave and edge my life away. I need this so badly….. Continue reading