More of Sean’s battle with masturbation and pornography addiction. Personally I have tried this approach, deleting my porn stash, many times and found that I always fall back into the habit.

Sean’s Blog- Removing Pornography

Being addicted to pornography, I had accumulated a pretty extensive library of images, video clips and movies onto CD’s. Almost all of my pornography was from the Net. In the past few years, I had filled 33+ CD’s. Maybe other people have more than that, but for me, it was never enough. I would look around on porn. sites for hours and hours saving images and video clips that appealed to me. I would save the porn. images and clips in a file on my hard drive until I had close to 700 MB, enough to fill up a CD.
So, when Ms. B ordered me to get rid of all my porn. a couple weeks ago I was at first hesitant. I thought all that time I had spentaccumulating my porn. library was now going in the trash! The first thing I did was delete all the porn. on my hard drive. Then erase the porn. websites I had bookmarked in my browser. The final act was destroying my porn. CD library and throw it in the trash.
I knew getting rid of porn. from my life was going to be difficult. It wasn’t just the throwing it all out, it was also staying away from it that was going to be difficult. Not browsing porn. sites every morning like I’m used to. Breaking habits is difficult, especially old ones.
Even though it has been a couple weeks already from being porn. free, I still having with drawls. I still crave wanting to peruse porn. site after porn. site. To help combat this, Mr. B has me "write lines" for 45 minutes each morning before I perform my corner-time and masturbation session. Hand writing the line, "Viewing porn. is not healthy for me" helps curtail the "drive" or "need" to view porn. It helps me focus and concentrate and in some ways relaxes at times.

A long-time friend and fellow masturbation addict is taking a different direction. We all wish him best of luck.

Sean’s Blog- Introduction May 18, 2009

I decided to take my blog in another direction. I will instead, write about my addiction to pornography and my addiction to chronic masturbation.

I have been addicted to pornography since, and I’m estimating here, 2001, about eight years. To me, addiction means I can not stop doing or performing a certain act and the addiction has negatively affected my career, relationships and health. I have tried to “ease back” the amount of time I view porn. and rarely succeeded.I would spend hours perusing pornographic websites and bookmark my favorites. I save images and video clips in a folder on my hard-drive and when I had accumulated about 700 MB’s, I would burn them onto a CD. The images I had saved I would spend hours putting them throughPhotoShop; lighten & darkening, sharpening, changing the contrast and viewing size.

My other “addiction” is I am a chronic masturbator. That is, I used to masturbate for hours and hours each day/night forgoing my responsibilities. I would isolate, view porn either on my computer or printed material for hours at a time and masturbate. Most of the time I would orgasm, other times saving it or “edge play” making my masturbation time period longer and longer. The amount of time I spent viewing porn. and masturbating was determined by my work load and other outside factors and responsibilities. I usually averaged 5-6 hours per day viewing porn. and masturbating. In extreme cases, I spent a total of 6-10 hours per day.

I want to make it clear I do not feel viewing pornography and masturbation are “bad” or negative things. I believe they can be healthy outlets on a number of physical and psychological levels. However, like other forms of pleasure such as drinking, gambling, eating, prescription drugs, etc., etc they can and often are abused.

I will write more about the steps I am taking to control my addiction to pornography and chronic masturbation soon.