a masturbator wrote:

Not seriously enforced, I don’t want to be arrested and listed as a sex offender. But just illegal enough to give me back something of the thrill I used to get in my early teens.  It is just too easy these days, nobody really cares as long as you don’t do it right in front of them.

I remember how I used to hide my behavior and all its evidence. Sneaking away so I could pull out my pecker and have a go, being very  quiet so the family wouldn’t hear. Hiding girlie mags, worrying about my cache being discovered. Peeking down girls’ necklines and up their skirts whenever I had the opportunity. Searching for sexy pictures, finding the naughty parts of famous books. Doing myself in bed at night, in the dark, slowly sliding my hand, mouth tight shut, spurting cum into a kleenex. 

I was hiding my true self from the world, in fact almost denying to myself that I was obsessed with masturbation. It was a guilty pleasure, an exciting secret adventure.

Even years later, when sex was all semi-legal, it was such a thrill pulling my stiff one out in an adult movie theater. Or going into a video arcade kiosk, dropping my pants and underpants down to my knees, seeing my big erection there in the semi-darkness. Even though both of these were done with careful discretion, the very fact that I could theoretically get caught added to the excitement and pleasure.

Yes, I know I could still find risky ways to indulge in socially unacceptable behavior. But I don’t want to offend people, I don’t want to get caught.  I just want to feel like I am getting away with something!