In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
This is yet another recounting of my sexual history, just up to the point where Playboy entered my life at age twelve. It is more structured and analytical than the account on my blog.
A few days ago I attended the memorial service for a family member about my own age (60’s). There were displays of photographs of him at every age, and I was in a few of them. It triggered a flood of memories of my younger self, particularly as an adolescent.
I especially pictured myself at age twelve or thirteen, slim and good looking, with kind of a smirky self confident air. I know from carefully reconstructing my sexual history that at the time I was a regular masturbator – most guys are at that age. But was my indulgence in that sort of secret activity publicly apparent? Would people looking at me back then, or a picture of me later, have imagined my secret life of compulsive masturbation?
I remember well how it was at that age. Any time I pulled my pants down or off, an instant erection sprang up, stiff and urgent. If I had sufficient time and privacy I would heed the call of nature and vigorously stroke my foreskin back and forth until I orgasmed and ejaculated. Then I usually had to put it away and resume my life, looking like a respectable young man again. At night, or when I had a longer period of privacy during the day, I would do myself again and again, making it last, cumming several times. I was a sex-obsessed monster – when I wasn’t working my penis I was thinking impure thoughts, looking forward to my next opportunity to play my favorite game.
This may come as a surprise to those who know what a compulsive masturbator I am. But I recently went a full ten days without doing myself. Not because I was trying to give it up (never!) or to store up libido for my next session. It was because I contracted a bladder infection. Cause unknown, cure an easy course of penicillin.
When the infection was raging it was very painful to urinate, and there was a stinging sensation in my urethra at all times. I was not tempted to play with my penis at all, though I could feel the necessity building up.
I took the pills for ten days, and after four days the stinging went away so I gave myself a trial wank. A little painful, so I kept it short, and I only ejaculated a small amount. It was interesting to see that my semen, which normally is creamy white, was completely clear. Obviously something had changed. At the end of the medication, when I was completely cured, I was still only shooting small amounts, and it was clear.
Yesterday, after two days of abstinence, I woke up horny and spent an hour masturbating in the morning. It was a good juicy cum, volume back to normal, and a bit milky. A few hours later my hand was back down there and I ended up doing myself for another half hour, with a good spurt.
This experience reminded me how important masturbation is to me, and what a great loss it would be if for any reason I had to stop. To celebrate my renewed ability to pleasure myself I plan to masturbate all day today.
Seems pretty obvious to me, but few people will openly and honestly discuss this. The article says that 96% of the 2000 men surveyed masturbated, but not how often, which would have interested me. Also that the average age they began masturbating was 15, which seems a year or two (or in my case three) later than I would guess.
And masturbating. I spent all day at this, ignoring all other projects, including work on my book. I just gawked at all those young naked girls with round white boobs. I couldn’t stop, I handled myself feverishly for nine hours straight. Despite efforts to conserve my libido I orgasmed three times, which is unusual at my age (67).
In private, in my secret life, I am a gross naked compulsive masturbator, obsessed with sex, my hand always stroking my penis. In my mind’s eye my erection is a foot long, the most beautiful thing in the world. It governs my life, I devote myself to fulfilling its needs. It is as true now as when I was a priapic teenager – if I have time and privacy I will almost always devote it to masturbation. But nobody knows that about me.