Guided Masturbation Stories
The Retreat
by Estragon, circa 1995. A camp in which girls learn to rule and boys learn to like it.
Dearest Kristen,
I know, I know. It’s been ages. But I had to get your approval on something. Somebody recently posted to one of the newsgroups on the net a vivid description of a summer-camp in which mothers and daughters dominated and disciplined their sons and brothers. For a minute I thought….Well, of course, it turned out to be a fantasy, and I had to smile, because I never really entertain the possibility of my real life being somebody’s fantasy. But why shouldn’t I? When I need to daydream about sex, mostly I only have to remember. Yes, Kristen, maybe I don’t write or call that much, but the very sound of your name is enough to make my knees bend and my penis harden. Believe me, I still go crazy when I remember the first time we met. I was six and you five, so maybe you can’t even recall it. But it meant a lot to me. Mom introduced your mother and you as “Aunt Bonnie and Cousin Kristen.” For a long time I really thought Bonnie was mom’s sister. I only found out it was a figure of speech years later, when I started feeling guilty about wanting my own cousin to tap me. Mom eased my mind on that matter. Do you remember that first time at all? “Bobby, honey, be a good boy and undress for Aunt Bonnie and Cousin Kristen.” Can you imagine what that sounded like to a little boy who wanted nothing more? “Be a good boy!” Mom made being a good boy sound so easy. I never figured out why the boys in the ‘hood had such a hard time with it.
I know, you’re probably wondering why, at six, I wanted to be naked for you and your mother so much. I can’t say, really. Just that it already seemed the best thing in the world to “unhide” yourself to girls. (That was my mental word for it, “unhide.” And, actually, it’s still my private word.) Dad was around then, and I remember walking in on him and mom a couple of times and seeing him kneeling in front of her stark naked. My appearance in the doorway didn’t bother mom at all, but dad was embarrassed and probably would have skulked off if mom didn’t make a point of ordering him to stay put. I was impressed, believe me. I was a really small child then, maybe only five, but something in me made me think that dad was crazy to want to hide. To be kneeling like that before “a lady,” even if the lady was my own mom, seemed the greatest thing in the world for anybody who wasn’t a lady. And I knew that much - I mean, that I wasn’t a lady. I think I took in dad’s erection, but I didn’t know quite what to make of it. I had a little one myself, but at that age they hardly increased the total size of my tiny emblem of future slavery. Do you remember? I had one that first day, right in front of you and Aunt Bonnie. You probably don’t even remember, but I do - and how you giggled and gaily jogged it about with your little-girl hand. Your mom said to mine, “He’s absolutely adorable.” And mine said to yours, “So is Kristen, so is Kristen.”
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