a masturbator is out of control:

I was off work yesterday and I’m off again today.  I have no self control at all anymore. I tell myself I’m not going to masturbate, but, I do. I immediately started masturbating within one minute of my wife leaving yesterday and couldn’t make myself stop for over 6 hours. I lost most of the day again and nothing got done. Here I am again naked at the computer masturbating. I have no self control and I’m powerless against this addiction.  I’m sure that I will masturbate in bed in the morning with or without my wife being present, unless I have to get up and get online and do it. She knows I do it online now, but, has never actually caught me by surprise. Sometimes I’ll tell her I’m going online to beat off and she leaves me alone to do my thing. I’m naked all the time now when I’m home and I have always slept naked. I’m completly impotent and can’t get hard for any kind of sex, but, when I wake up during the night and in the morning I’m always as hard as a rock. I like to play with myself when I’m hard like that. It never lasts long though soon I’m limp as a wet noodle. No matter what my wife does to me orally or manually no erection any more at all. Sometimes Viagra will work.

I just wanted to touch base with you before I get greasy and I’m down to onehanded typing.

masturbators said:

Thanks for these references to Stroke Addict’s blog.
Hadn’t been there before. Terrific blog on a par with onania and
total cock worship.  Have spent last 4 hours edging while reading
these blogs and still going. And when I say edging I mean edging.
Did I read somewhere that some use the term edging as syn for
masterbating?  Hell no.  Edging is a FORM of masturbating where
the stimulation level is maintained hovering near the point of
orgasm.  Eventually one reaches an altered state where the words
bliss, ecstasy, heaven, nirvana come to mind.  One feels in a sort
of suspended state, becoming one with COCK.
I aim to reach that state off and all day today.
A while back I had a week where I masturbated/edged 43 hours.
I’m guessing I was edging about 80% of that time.
Nothing like living on the edge!

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I agree with you about edging - it is what I live for, being one
stroke away from cumming, and staying at that point for hours.  You
described it so well - becoming an altered, suspended state, one with
cock.  That is exactly what it is.  Edging is more important to me
than anything - more important than my family, my job, more important
than eating or sleeping.  I dream of being able to spend 24 hours a
day in front of the computer, stroking my cock and filling my mind
with the most intense porn until it consumes me, never stopping.

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This is so true. I feel the same. Edging and the pleasure to my cock is the most important thing in my life. I live to masturbate and fill my soul with porn and desire for Cock pleasure. It is so intense that I have changed religions and have recently adopted the worship of the Cock. I like to communicate with all that feel like this. It is so emancipating to know that I am not alone that many other guys are enslaved to masturbation.

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I am not only a slave to masturbation and cock, the fact that I am actually arouses me even more.  I have given up control of my life to masturbating.  It is indeed a freeing experience!  I don’t know if it is possible to be any more addicted than I am now, but my hope is that in 2007 my addiction will grow even deeper and stronger than it was in 2006.
I love how you used the word enslaved.  It gave my cock an extra nice twitch when I read it!

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Actually, a few years back before I embraced my addiction, I used to go to sexual addiction addiction websites to try and "cure" myself.  Each and every time though I ended up getting aroused reading about the addiction, and would end up masturbating while reading the therapy sites to help you stop!  It was after that that I realized that this is something special, a blessing, a gift to be cherished, and I embraced my addiction.  I am proud to be a chronic, compulsive masturbator.
Richard, I’ve actually thought about going to those groups with the intent of telling arousing stories and getting everyone aroused and bring them back into the fold, but so far it is just a fantasy!

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I have not undergone treatment myself, but I also wonder how effective it is
for the long term. I can see being caught up in the enthusiasm of a
treatment group and (in analogy to alcoholism) "taking the pledge". But
after a while, the penis is always there, and who will know if I stroke it
just one more time today?

Masturbator Gets HOLLAnervous!

On Monday, I was on the F train going to 23rd Street today when I saw this weirdo. This middle age man in his 40’s wearing glasses, white shirt and cap with a belly was on my train looking at me and jerking off. I had been sitting on the corner of the car and reading my book when I look up and saw him staring and masturbating furiously under a plastic shopping bag on his lap. He had his penis out of his pants. There were not many people on the train. . I stared at him and nodded my head in disgust and said, “Hey jerk off!” Thats all I could think of but he just smiled when I got out. If I noticed earlier, I could have told the cops but it was just a minute before I got out.

On Tuesday, I was on the same train and he was standing by the doors with his hand in his pocket. He smiled at me. I gave him a stare and said out loud so other people could hear, “You are the jerk off from yesterday! Remember me?!” He stopped smiling. “You are a fat old man who likes to jerk off at girls young enough to be your daughter,” I said. He looked away. The train came to my stop and as I left he looked like he was nervous and no hand in his pants this time.

from Holla Back New York City - If You Can’t Slap ‘Em, Snap ‘Em!: Masturbator Gets HOLLAnervous!

an extremely chronic masturbator said:

I mentioned in my introduction that I started masturbating compulsively at age 7. By age 10, when my friends would spend the night, I was begging them to sleep naked so we could jack off together. One or two of them were even nice enough to let me jack and suck them as well. At 14 I had a steady dose of hardcore porn on a daily basis. I knew immediately that porn was all I cared about in life - it was (and is) so glorious. In 8th grade, I masturbated so much during the course of one weekend that the entire underside of my penis was rubbed completely raw (I still have a slight scar there). That did not stop me though, I simply grabbed a soft cloth, wrapped it around my cock and kept stroking. During this time I discovered that the cloth rubbing against the sides of my head caused great pleasure sensations, so to this day I always masturbate with something wrapped around my cock, usually a pair of panties, but even a washcloth will do.

I never even tried to have sex with a girl during high school - my hand was all I needed. As soon as I got out of high school I joined the Marine Corps. At age 18, I found myself stationed not far from LA. On my first weekend there I headed for Hollywood Blvd. I watched 2 porn flicks at the Pussycat Theater. When I came out I was nice and horny, so I picked up a hooker and brought her back to my room. I can still remember so clearly her trying to get my cock hard, to no avail. Here I was at age 18, and already can not get an erection for intercourse! She gave up after about 15 minutes, and then I spent the rest of the night masturbating! Not long after that, I found myself in Europe, watching live sex shows in Germany and Amsterdam. My 18 year old mind thought that I had died and gone to heaven.

At 19 I got married as a virgin. On my wedding night, I was unable to get an erection for my wife (looking back, I find that to be so hot - not even being able to get it up for your wedding night!). We were finally able to consummate our marriage later in the honeymoon after she spent a while giving me a hand job. She moved with me to where I was stationed, and even though I had a very horny, 19 year old newlywed wife waiting for me at home, every day when I got off duty I would head for the peep show booths instead of going home. On several occasions someone would knock on the door to my booth and I would let him in to suck me while I looked at the porn. I’d get home and my wife would want to have sex, and I would get a special thrill as we were screwing knowing that less than 2 hours ago this cock she is enjoying was cumming inside of a perfect stranger’s mouth - usually a middle aged man old enough to be my father! Those daily sessions in the peep show booth were always more special to me than sex with my new wife.

Over the years, I spent many hours in topless & nude bars and peep shows, and always had a huge collection of porn locked in a giant trunk in our attic. I still had sex with my wife on occasion, but I kept my erection by recalling the porn I had filled my mind with. Then the Internet came! What a wonderful tool for masturbators. My addiction grew by leaps and bounds! I have never been happier. Finally, 7 years ago now, I lost all ability to gain an erection for intercourse. Just to be sure it wasn’t something about my wife that turned me off, I arranged motel meetings for sex with other women. For 4 separate women and a couple I could not get an erection. I can’t tell you the wonderful feeling of looking down as a women tries in vain to suck your cock into an erection, finally giving up as the limp, useless noodle falls out of her mouth. Afterwards, I would go home and masturbate for hours recalling the events. Although I cannot have intercourse, my penis always responds to my hand. Just one touch of my hand to my penis brings instant pleasure and a rock hard erection. I have tried masturbating to erection, then having sex, but as soon as it starts to enter the vagina, it goes limp.

I have now been a chronic, compulsive masturbator for 37 years, and extremely addicted to porn for 30 years. I fully embrace and cherish my addiction. I know that even though it is the number one thing in my life, I can always strengthen the desire, and try to do so every day. I routinely edge for 5 or 6 hours straight without stopping, and my goal is to get to 8 hours. I want to spend my days surrounded by porn, never taking my hand off of my cock. That is my desire for the next 30 years.

from FDA: Agents can seize penis rings at borders | Business | Star-Telegram.com 

Penis enlargers and constricting rings to maintain erections can be seized at U.S. borders, U.S. regulators said Thursday, citing inadequate safety labels.

The devices have inadequate directions for use and can have harmful effects, from rupturing blood vessels to causing gangrene of the penis, the Food and Drug Administration said in guidance to import inspectors posted on the agency’s Web site. The guidance was a revision to guidelines on “external penile rigidity devices” the FDA published in 2004.

“Basically, the labeling of these devices falsely states or implies they will treat impotence, prolong erection, and increase the dimensions of the penis,” the FDA said in the new notice.

The FDA said such devices fall into several categories:

Mechanical stretching devices, which “employ weights or lines tied to other parts of the body such as the knee, to affect tension on the penis.

Vacuum operating devices, “those employing a sealing principle in the area of the base of the penis and an evacuation mechanism to drop the atmospheric pressure around the penis, thereby affecting increased blood flow.”

Constrictive rings, which “constrict the base of the penis after erection has been achieved and cause the erection to be maintained by blocking the normal circulation of blood from the penis.”

Supportive devices, which “function as a splint or cradle in order to maintain a resumblance of turgidity.”

 Becky from http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ourmasturbation/ sends us :

this YouTube clip of a fellow masturbator who got
himself into a tight spot…and couldn’t get himself out of…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sU_9AdQL8E

What a painful and embarrassing experience.

And Bob presents one worse from http://www.darwinawards.com/stupid/stupid1998-10.html

… An unmarried loner, he usually didn’t leave the machine shop at lunchtime with his co-workers. Finding himself alone, he had begun the regular practice of masturbating by holding his penis against the canvas drive-belt of a large floor-based piece of running machinery. One day, as he approached orgasm, he lost his concentration and leaned too close to the belt. When his scrotum suddenly became caught between the pulley-wheel and the drive-belt, he was thrown into the air and landed a few feet away. Unaware that he had lost his left testis, and perhaps too stunned to feel much pain, he stapled the wound closed and resumed work. …

 In Chronicles of an Addicted Stroker: Eating my own load Strokeaddict said:

I first ate my own cum when I was a teenager. Already addicted to masturbation, I discovered that by lying on bed, putting my legs behind my head, braced against the wall, I could suck my own cock. Not too far down the shaft, mind you, but just the head and a bit more. … more

I can’t suck it, but I’ve done the hips-over-head bit in order to shoot into my mouth.

There but for the grace of God go we … 

Last night in Hong Kong, the police received a disturbing call from a man in trouble.

Xing, a 41 year-old man, was calling from LanTian park in the middle of the night. The lonely and disturbed man had apparently thought it would be fun to have sex with one of the steel sit-up benches around the park.

The bench has numerous small holes in it, which Xing used to attempt to satisfy himself. However, once he became aroused he found that he was stuck and could not get his penis out of the small hole.

He panicked and called the police to help him.

When police arrive they found Xian stuck face down where he had been stuck for some time.

more at Man Almost Loses Penis Humping Steel Bench | Weird Asia News

Matt said:

Many men say they are masturbaters, solosexual, batersexual… but to what extent? I have met some men that claim they are complete baters - but they end up being guys that love to jack off (and maybe want a little more) unlike myself. I define masturbater, solosexual, batersexual as even a higher sense of masturbatory level. When I masturbate my penis - I masturbate my brain and body as well. I BECOME a masturbater. A complete dumb mindless masturbator. I become masturbation. The masturbation becomes me. My penis needs my attention and it needs to be worshiped through masturbation. When my penis calls for an all night masturbation masturbatory session - I obey it. I set up my masturbatorium at home, in motel rooms, or where ever it wants me to masturbate it. Lots of pornography, lots of male photos, lots of intense verbal stimulation through masturbation files/music, male voices, and I get heavy stupid and dumb on my penis. Completely nude and out of control on my penis. Talking to it - cock babbling at myself, hanging my penis, nipples, anus hole… they need to be exposed… flexing posing and just plain getting so fucked up and stupid on myself for my penis. I become this masturbation zombie for hours - usually 7 - 10 hours of stupic gooned masturbater bliss in the masturbatorium. The longer the more stupid I get. Dumb on my beautiful phallus dong. So dumb… so stupid, so completely masturbatory that I am nothing more than a masturbation idiot. I talk to myself in the mirrors coaching myself to get more deeper in masturbation… I look at men (nude and clothed) online and they make me even more masturbatory - as if I can hear them telling me to get more dumb on dong. I get perved and narcissistic. I talk to my penis, anus, nips, bush, and pits. I look at phallus’ and worship them in lust online. It is intense and I love to get so deep into my masturbation in my masturbatorium. I always try to get deeper and deeper and dumber and dumber every session. My masturbation is an event - not just a jack off session. I love to jack off — but I live for my masturbatorium sessions! Nude - long - deep - hard - stupid - dumb - chronic! I AM A SERIOUS HARDCORE MASTURBATOR! If you truly know what I am - then you also know serious masturbation. Get dumb on dong!

Warning for Satire-Impaired

From Compulsive Masturbation 

Compulsive masturbation may frequently cause the person to be late for work, skip work entirely, or miss other activities. Masturbation also keeps alive a persistent and distressing fantasy life. Fantasy may preoccupy the sex addict to the point of his or her being ineffectual in work or play - … This fantasy life, as the disease progresses, may become increasingly destructive and vicious, and can ultimately lead to sadism, masochism, and even homicidal or suicidal ideation.

While most sex addicts hit bottom eventually - however the solitary nature of the compulsive masturbator’s behavior leaves their actions less subject to the direct consequences of other forms of sexual acting out.

The addict engaging in compulsive masturbation seeks therapeutic intervention for help as a last resort, seeking relief from anxiety, obsession, isolation and the inability to seek or maintain healthy intimate relationships.

Some compulsive masturbators do experience consequences through the viewing of inappropriate materials i.e. child pornography or through masturbating in inappropriate places i.e. the workplace or an automobile.

However, the most frequent consequence of compulsive masturbation is a life devoid of intimacy and a life filled with hidden shame.

While some sex addicts compulsively masturbate in a brief, routine fashion, others can act more as binge masturbators. They may find themselves spending hours at a time “lost” in fantasy, porn use and masturbation.

Unlike the routine masturbator, the binge masturbator can lose hours or even days to the internet porn, computer, porn videos and masturbate. They can literally lock themselves up at home, or in motel rooms and disappear into their masturbatory escape.

This type of behavior is not unlikely to result in genital injury due to the amount of time and energy devoted to the masturbation. While usually the injury and pain is not sought for pleasure, the binge compulsive masturbator will not use physical damage as a guide toward stopping or self-care. Instead they will likely continue their sexual activity, even hurting themselves further and bringing about more shame….

Potential negative consequences of masturbation

The capacity to love is reduced (e.g. dissociation of sex from friendship, affection, caring and other normal healthy emotions and traits which help marital relationships). This sexual side becomes, in a sense, dehumanized. Many sex addicts develop also an “alien ego state” (or dark side), whose core is antisocial lust devoid of most values. In time, the “high” obtained from masturbating to pornography becomes more important than real life relationships.

It has been commonly thought by health educators that masturbation has negligible consequences, other than reducing sexual tensions. Moral objections aside, one exception would appear to be in the area of repeatedly masturbating to deviant pornographic imagery, either in memories in the mind or as explicit pornographic stimuli which risks (via conditioning) the acquiring of sexual addictions and/or other sexual pathology. It makes no difference if one is an eminent physician, attorney, minister, athlete, corporate executive, college president, unskilled laborer, or an average 15 year old boy. All can be conditioned into deviancy. The process of masturbatory conditioning is inexorable and does not spontaneously remiss.

Sex addict masturbates chronically until his penis is sore or abraded, until there is no more semen to ejaculate. Or he may masturbate in his car, or in a park or restroom with the hope of being seen. He prefers masturbation over sex with a partner.

These are the risks we run for our masturbator lifestyle. It’s a dirty job, but somebody has to do it.