Onania . Org/asm

querty said:

I am a masturbator. That’s how I have defined myself for many years. Simply, I live to masturbate.

I’ve been a chronic masturbator my entire life. My earliest clear memories of daily masturbation go back to when I was 6 years old. I was an only child and had almost unlimited opportunities to indulge in the pleasures I was giving myself. This led to a very kinky childhood devoted to my penis and my emerging fetishes. The memories of those dry orgasms and the nasty things I did still make me hot many years later. At the time, I knew I wasn’t normal and thought there was something terribly wrong with me. But, I was helpless to stop enjoying my genitals and denying the dirty things that occupied my mind. I guess I was around 10 years old when I began to accept what I was and I have been totally out of control ever since.

I have used visual stimulation to feed my masturbation since my earliest memories. It has progressed from the underwear section of the Sears catalog to the filthiest porn on the internet. The internet has opened a whole new world of pornography that just wasn’t available in commercial magazines and videos. For example, I’ve discovered how much I truly love to look at naked sexually aroused men. I can so identify with how they feel. Now, I love to troll gay chat rooms to seduce one man after another into phone sex while I edge. It excites me to make them hot and hear them cum.

My interest in men might lead some of you to think I’m gay. The gay- straight labels are irrelevant to me. I’m a solosexual. My masturbation is very much a solitary pleasure. It’s the only time I’m free to enjoy the porn and many fetishes that stimulate and arouse my sexuality. No one is there to judge or condemn. As long as I don’t hurt others, I can do ABSOLUTELY anything that makes me hot.

I am totally consumed by my need to masturbate. I even dream about it. I love to spend entire days and weekends lost in my kinky nasty fun. Unfortunately, I’m married and have a full-time job. That often forces me to lie to my wife and employer in order to have my “alone time.” There is just so much about my solosexuality that society could not possibly accept. But, that’s part of the thrill of being a masturbator