In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
I can only tell you the route that works for me. First, smoke a lot of weed. Get yourself very high. And then get yourself very horny. Use some pornography that you have found reliably effective. For me, as far as getting goony goes, Playboy Playmate Videos from the 1990’s and Aughts are the most effective. The way those videos are shot, the Playmates appear to be regarding my cock and reacting to it, that puts me in the mindset to regard my own cock and react to it. ….
I can only tell you the route that works for me. First, smoke a lot of weed. Get yourself very high. And then get yourself very horny. Use some pornography that you have found reliably effective. For me, as far as getting goony goes, Playboy Playmate Videos from the 1990’s and Aughts are the most effective. The way those videos are shot, the Playmates appear to be regarding my cock and reacting to it, that puts me in the mindset to regard my own cock and react to it.
Edge. Repeatedly get yourself close to climax and then back off. Savor the feeling of the plateau state. Psyche yourself up. Groan out loud. Babble. Say, out loud, what you are doing. “I’m masturbating, I’m jerking my dick off!” In my case it would be something like, “Oh Jenny, you’re making me beat my wiener.” Or, “Oh Stacy, you have caused me to engage in masturbatory activity!” Whatever. The more awkward and embarrassing the better. Embarrassment is a state of intense self-awareness, and that’s what you are trying to get to. But, instead of painful shame, you want inverted eroticized shame. You’ll know when you are there.
There are other factors at play. One of the effects of marijuana is the mind isolates and notices details that would normally be passed by. If you don’t use weed, (or even if you do) the awareness that comes from a practice of meditation ought to help with this as well: While in or near a plateau state, you should engage in some specific consideration of the pleasurable sensations you are experiencing. I remember noticing that my hips thrust up and down involuntarily. You are probably familiar with that. But then I also noted the involuntary slow pulse of the muscles in my loin and lower abdomen. Going further I noticed the very small movements of the muscles in my testicles. So, I looked down and sure enough, even sitting still, my balls were rolling around a little and moving more quickly as I watched. I noticed how hard, purple and veiny my cock was. The sight of it was turning me on immensely so it grew even more engorged as I watched. This created a surge of pleasure that created a feedback loop. Being aroused at the physical manifestation of my own arousal increased my arousal and thus intensified the physical manifestation further increasing the arousal. Going on and on. Don’t worry! Your dick won’t actually explode.
But you may just have an ejaculation that is an order of magnitude more pleasurable than any you have had before. For me, it always feels awesome to come. It feels awesome to wait to cum as well. That’s the eternal struggle of the dedicated masturbator. But, I have had a few orgasms that were so much better than any other orgasms. Some have happened in a pussy, some have happened in a mouth. But the best ones, I have made with my own palm.
And, those excelsior spunk squirts are pretty rare. I always come really hard after getting to a gooning state. Usually, I ejaculate five or six good ropes all over my chest and belly. But, the time I’m remembering now, (shit, eighteen years ago?) I had been ripping bong hits and jacking all afternoon without shooting. Really in it. A skilled onanist at the top of his game. I had gotten to Jennifer Rovero’s Playmate Profile. VHS tape turning in the VCR. My girl moving across the cathode ray tube. Me edging, gooning on my boner and gooning on Jennifer. Suddenly it feels like the hand of God pins me to my jerk chair. I mean, for an instant I thought something was wrong. Then I cry out as I shoot off over my shoulder all over the wall behind me. No bullshit. I was astounded when I looked later. The next blast, I give myself a full facial. I’m still pinned but it feels so good. Then, another six or so ropes all over my chest and I’m left gasping, somewhat in disbelief that I could make that happen. My junk ached afterwards.
Anyway, I veered off topic there for a bit, but TL;DR what you need to do is:
Edge. Psyche yourself up. Expand awareness of your pleasure. That state where the arousal you are causing yourself becomes arousing in itself is magical. And it is achievable. You will fall in love with your own hard dick. Just put in the time and effort you need to until you get there, and enjoy the journey. Best of Luck!
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