Our first experiences of self-gratification are often mixed with shame. For some of us, the shame and enjoyment of masturbation cyclically reinforce each other to the extent that they become inseparably bound. The early imprinting lasts a lifetime, and shame remains our constant familiar when we masturbate. But the shame also becomes eroticized, intensifying and animating our masturbatory pleasures.
This continues the essay, taking us from adolescence through the shame of adult masturbation addiction. I apologize for inferior audio quality due to technical reasons.
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