In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
We had sex at least four or five times a week in our first years of marriage, yet I jerked off every single day – usually more than once – unless for some reason it was impossible. It wasn’t just a choice for me any more. I needed to cum. Or at least that was what I felt in my heart. I guess that was when I really became”chronic”.
But then I got to thinking, there was a time when my masturbation practice went from something I just did alot to something I found myself making extra time for and doing even when I had other non-sexual things that I was supposed to do. That time began when I first got married. I suppose that it has something to do with all of a sudden having access to sex and fucking nearly any time I wanted it. (Wifey was as sexualized as me and always ready) This caused me to want to cum all the damn time, I think. That was when I guess I actually became “chronic” in my masturbating habits rather than thinking I was in control. I was writing just the other day about how it turned out I masturbated about an hour before my wedding ceremony, and I thought it was kind of perverted that I did. My fiance and I had been fucking a lot right up until the wedding so I guess I was just getting accustomed to a certain frequency of orgasms?
We then went on a quick honeymoon and after a nice long wedding night fuck session I still got up out of our marriage bed and went to a private place and masturbated. When we were first having daily sex, I still found I had to masturbate just thinking about fucking my wife or needing just that one more orgasm. She once caught me jerking off in the living room even though we’d agreed we were going to have sex as soon as she had finished some task she was doing. I told her I was thinking about fucking her and just couldn’t wait to fuck her and she bought that excuse; although I just wanted an orgasm right that minute.
We had sex at least four or five times a week in our first years of marriage, yet I jerked off every single day – usually more than once – unless for some reason it was impossible. It wasn’t just a choice for me any more. I needed to cum. Or at least that was what I felt in my heart. I guess that was when I really became”chronic”. From that time to the present day, I have masturbated as much as I could. I’ve settled into a routine that many of us have also written, I masturbate once in the morning as soon as I can, then later in the afternoon or evening I treat myself to a longer more involved masturbation session. Yet some days I find myself not being able to wait for my long session and I pull open my fly and jerk off when the urge starts controlling me. I’ve also finished a long self-love session complete with toys and lots of stimulation, only to find myself lying in bed or up late with the computer and having to masturbate “just one more time”.
That’s pretty chronic, Isn’t it?
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