Onania Masturbator Forum: In love with masturbating my cock

In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:

My masturbation is often next to my wife in bed. I wait until she is asleep then slowly tease my penis building and building the pleasure. The thought of being discovered if she woke up is a huge turn on for me. Mentally I am conversing with myself the whole time – talking about wanking, asking fantasy women if they will take off their clothes so I can see their big titties and what a chronic, compulsive masturbator I am. Eventually the pleasure is unbearably intense but I have to be as quiet and still as possible. This seems to heighten the sensations even more. Sometimes my eyes roll back and I have even shed tears of pure ecstasy on occasion. As wonderful as sex is with my wife, for pure erotic pleasure, nothing comes close to what I can achieve myself through edging and denial.

 


In love with masturbating my cock

Thu Mar 30, 2017 8:18 pm

Hi all, it is high time I introduced myself properly and openly confessed to one and all my chronic need for self-pleasure and my deep compulsion to play with my hard penis.

I will try and keep this fairly brief as I have a tendency to write A LOT. I can expand on topics and offer more depending on readers curiosity.

I am a 48 year old married solosexual. I still make love with my wife but only every two or three weeks as her libido is starting to tail off a little. In between times I love love love to masturbate my penis at every available opportunity. As much as possible I try to “save” my ejaculations for my wife. I have gone through a lot of masturbation guilt that I can cover in another post but I came up with this idea to allow me to masturbate more. The thought of not masturbating is like not breathing so I needed to trick my brain into getting rid of the guilty conscience that followed an ejaculation. By not manually bringing myself to ejaculation I have achieved a wonderful balance and have sunk deeper and deeper into edging.

I began masturbating very early (I think 7 or 8 years old). I wish I could remember my first time but alas that memory has gone. I have always been an edger in the making as I fell under the spell of masturbatory pleasure so completely. As soon as I orgasmed, the pleasure stopped so I tried not to orgasm as a way of continuing the pleasure for longer.

Throughout my life I have always masturbated to a greater or lesser degree. I used to extend sessions but always cum at their conclusion. About 18 months ago I randomly had a thought as I was lost in stroke lust – “this feels so good. I wonder how good it would feel if I stopped now and carried on tomorrow?” This experiment was a MASSIVE turning point in my wanking career. The pleasure on the following day was breathtaking. I learnt about edging combined with denial. As many of you will readily appreciate, I was hopelessly lost and now I deny my ejaculation as much as possible. I have trained myself (lots & lots of practice) to edge right at the point of no return. Sometimes I can give myself dry orgasms where I have contractions and delicious throbbing pulses but don’t cum. Often I will go 20+ days between ejaculations and currently I am on Day 15.

Aside from reading Onania postings, masturbatory erotic fiction and masturbation biographies, my favourite porn is women with big natural breasts and any kind of female masturbation but especially women edging and women riding dildos.

My masturbation is often next to my wife in bed. I wait until she is asleep then slowly tease my penis building and building the pleasure. The thought of being discovered if she woke up is a huge turn on for me. Mentally I am conversing with myself the whole time – talking about wanking, asking fantasy women if they will take off their clothes so I can see their big titties and what a chronic, compulsive masturbator I am. Eventually the pleasure is unbearably intense but I have to be as quiet and still as possible. This seems to heighten the sensations even more. Sometimes my eyes roll back and I have even shed tears of pure ecstasy on occasion. As wonderful as sex is with my wife, for pure erotic pleasure, nothing comes close to what I can achieve myself through edging and denial.

Currently my wife is on night shifts (God I love these. She works four in a row once a month). I normally gorge on porn hands free for an hour or so and then shut the porn off so I can just focus totally on my cock and the sensations I am producing. I think of it as mindful masturbation. I try to enjoy every single stroke. It is very difficult to stop on these occasions and I always end up sleep deprived. Sometimes I wake during the night with an aching and turgid penis desperate for some more fondling.

Writing about my masturbation is a great turn on. I love reading posts from others and modestly hope that others will enjoy my posts as much. I would have written sooner but when I have the free time to write properly I am consumed with an urge to wank my cock and edge it again and again and again and OH GOD again and OH YES again……..

 

 

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