In the Onania Masturbator Forum, a Masturbator Wrote:
One of the things I’ve realised is that as I masturbate excessively, it really makes me more stupid. I’m thinking that it’s actually the right thing to do that my wife despises me. That is what I am.
One of the things I’ve realised is that as I masturbate excessively, it really makes me more stupid. I’m thinking that it’s actually the right thing to do that my wife despises me. That is what I am. A freak, addict, masturbator. I wouldn’t mind being a full-time masturbator with no other life. My wife could do all the decision on our life. If she decides to do something bad to me, I wouldn’t mind. What the heck, I’d actually love it. Or maybe not love or even like it, but it makes my cock hard, which means I can not resist it. I think servufon is right, I’m becoming inferior. That’s what I feel with my desires and my incapability to resist.
My wife has further enhanced my humiliation by saying that I need to get her dildo for her and fuck her with it so that she does not have to and can pleasure herself at the same time. When I see the giant dildo inside her it feels so bad that it’s difficult to maintain hardon. I can never fill her like that. It stretches her pussy so much. I can never make her feel that. She says that this is closest the fucking I’ll get and be. I’m not to touch her. It almost makes me cry. But later when I get the chance, like now, I’m masturbating vigorously to the idea even though I know that it just widens the inequality between us. I know it’s bad for me, but I do not care. Just let me masturbate on it. Let me have some more of that drug.
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