Porn, Masturbation, and Delayed Ejaculation
On January 1st, 2012 I stole away from a meal with family and masturbated to porn videos on the internet. Afterwards I returned to my family for the rest of the evening. But before going to sleep, I had another wack-off session, once again stimulated by internet pornography. A week before this I had received a very unenthusiastic blowjob from Ashley. Before that, I don’t remember the last time we had had sex. Probably wasn’t in December. Mostly likely some time in November.
I felt like shit. I was sick of porn and sick of jacking off. I wanted to have sex with Ashley, but I had become tired of initiating sex only to be told she wasn’t in the mood. Porn and masturbation had become my primary source of sexual stimulation. Ashley had become secondary. Sex with Ashley was a roughly once-monthly break in the monotony of porn and masturbation (p&m).
P&M was roughly a once-a-day event for me basically since my family got a PC and an internet connection. I must have been around 17 or 18. Before that I had a couple pornographic magazines stashed away. But, as is becoming abundantly clear, internet porn, sometimes in HD, ever available, with endless variety, is a whole other monster.
One of the fears me and my virgin friends used to joke about in high school was premature ejaculation. No one wanted to be a “minuteman.” No one wanted to have a girl go tell people that we couldn’t please her. Once I finally lost my virginity, however, I felt a great deal of relief that I did not have that problem. I could last a long time. I took some pride in the fact. Although now I realize it’s no real accomplishment. It’s not that I can resist cumming too soon, it’s that it takes me a long time to be able to orgasm.
To orgasm via vaginal sex I have to strain and do it in certain positions. To orgasm from oral sex the girl has to really have some good jaw stamina and excellent technique, otherwise I just can’t cum. Many times I’ve resorted to fantasizing, or calling to memory scenes from pornography to help myself reach orgasm during vaginal sex or oral sex. My difficulty reaching orgasm is no cause of pride. I can’t brag that I “can go all night.” It prevents me from being able to have “quickies.” I think it’s made Ashley less enthusiastic because once we start it’s going to be a while.
I’m convinced that my “stamina” is really “delayed ejaculation,” the result of excess porn and masturbation. A symptom of over stimulation by pornography, and desensitization of the penis from frequent masturbation. It negatively impacts my sex life.
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